07-21-2017, 09:13 AM
Day 64 (Day 22 of B)
5 loops of B ultrasonic
I have noticed a strange thing on B. These days my IQ seems to have taken a hit. Just this morning I realized that I left my earphones in the plane two days ago. It's a real bummer because it's a custom IEM that cost me almost $2K. The airport lost and found didn't find it. Looks like it's gone forever. I really liked that IEM! Today on the way to seeing my FWB I also miscalculated the travel time badly. I should have left home one hour earlier. Ended up very late. I never made these kinds of mistakes! In London I also got lost multiple times despite using Google Maps. It's really frustrating. I feel like my brain is not focusing on these details anymore, it feels these are not important. Instead it focuses more on my sensory inputs.
On the flipside, I am beginning to feel the autopilot. This autopilot was more pronounced on 5 loops. Met my FWB today. The whole interaction felt very effortless and smooth, almost without conscious thinking. It's quite eerie now that I think about it. She was very turned on once we were alone. She was wearing a naughty lingerie, and I had my way with her in an animalistic way. No performance issues. Afterward she was very lovey dovey.
Frankly I am not liking this loss of cognitive focus. I have always valued intelligence highly so I am bewildered why my subconscious doesn't think it's important to be intelligent and on top of my shit to be sexually irresistible. I am running B until the weekend's up. After that I really think I will switch back to A. Or maybe switch to MLS. I miss being mentally alert and on top of things. I'll take stock of priorities again on Sunday and see.
5 loops of B ultrasonic
I have noticed a strange thing on B. These days my IQ seems to have taken a hit. Just this morning I realized that I left my earphones in the plane two days ago. It's a real bummer because it's a custom IEM that cost me almost $2K. The airport lost and found didn't find it. Looks like it's gone forever. I really liked that IEM! Today on the way to seeing my FWB I also miscalculated the travel time badly. I should have left home one hour earlier. Ended up very late. I never made these kinds of mistakes! In London I also got lost multiple times despite using Google Maps. It's really frustrating. I feel like my brain is not focusing on these details anymore, it feels these are not important. Instead it focuses more on my sensory inputs.
On the flipside, I am beginning to feel the autopilot. This autopilot was more pronounced on 5 loops. Met my FWB today. The whole interaction felt very effortless and smooth, almost without conscious thinking. It's quite eerie now that I think about it. She was very turned on once we were alone. She was wearing a naughty lingerie, and I had my way with her in an animalistic way. No performance issues. Afterward she was very lovey dovey.
Frankly I am not liking this loss of cognitive focus. I have always valued intelligence highly so I am bewildered why my subconscious doesn't think it's important to be intelligent and on top of my shit to be sexually irresistible. I am running B until the weekend's up. After that I really think I will switch back to A. Or maybe switch to MLS. I miss being mentally alert and on top of things. I'll take stock of priorities again on Sunday and see.
