01-20-2012, 11:09 AM
There's a young woman I have had a bit of a sweet tooth for ever since I encountered her website while doing research a few years back. I started talking to her and realized she is the only woman I have ever met who shares a certain set of personality traits with me, and they make her extremely attractive to me. But, I also knew, from looking at her natal chart, that we are not mutually compatible in a romantic or sexual sense, at least yet. So I chose to enjoy her company and leave it at that.
During the trip around the country, I went to Michigan to meet her. Drove there as fast as I could to be able to spend 45 minutes having lunch with her, and then picking blueberries. I drove all that way so fast because she was leaving the country the next day to go study abroad. Our little get together was not a date... and yet somehow it was the best date I think I have ever had. She, of course, does not know that I drove 12+ hours a day for two days straight simply to spend that time with her, but I do not regret doing it for a second. When a woman makes me want to do things like that just to spend time with her talking, it really says something to me.
This woman is brilliantly intelligent, which is a very big point of interest for me, and one that is just about impossible to find where I live. She understands the value of stillness, silence and solitude, like nobody else I have ever met... things I need for myself on a regular basis. She makes me respond spontaneously with something I had thought was dead in the world, and in myself: romance, genuine courtly love. It has been a very welcome change from the constant pursuit of animal desires, which I am left with by most women I meet. She makes me feel like Lancelot pursuing Gwenevere, and I love it. Somehow she exudes the innocence and purity you imagine from a deep forest scene showing a crystalline lake, a unicorn and a virgin maiden petting it. I was smitten from the beginning, and there is no denying it.
Unfortunately, she is a lot younger than I am, although still in her early 20's, and having the worldly experience that I have, I know that means she's not experienced enough with life yet to appreciate what I have to offer. What she sees from me is that I am "too old", and she will have none of anything but friendship. I assessed that long before I ever told her how she affects me, accepted it, and left it to enjoying what goodness there was to enjoy. I never even told her how she affected me because I wanted her to be comfortable with me. I just appreciated conversation with her and whenever I have been around her, enjoyed her inner stillness and tranquility.
Last night, however, I did something I thought would not happen for 5 to 10 years. I told her. Everything. And she responded more positively than I expected, but still tried to shut down any romantic approach. It was actually rather amusing, considering that I was making no effort at pursuit, sine I knew before hand that she would do that.
But it occurs to me that this must have been Sex Magnet's doing. I would not have told her... indeed, had not told her for the three years I have known her... and then last night, in an exhausted fit of working too hard and being overwhelmed by the romantic response she inspires me to... I told her. Don't know if that's a good or bad thing yet, but she enjoyed the romance of it. Perhaps eventually I will change her mind and she will be mine, if only for a little while... such a woman as this, unfortunately, will never be still in love. If only meeting such a wondrous woman were not so rare.
I am liking that SM is pushing me to be more forthright, while at the same time preventing my tongue from waggling in ways that make my mouth taste of foot, even when I am exhausted. I also like that SM has not killed my romantic response. New game afoot now. We shall see what happens.
During the trip around the country, I went to Michigan to meet her. Drove there as fast as I could to be able to spend 45 minutes having lunch with her, and then picking blueberries. I drove all that way so fast because she was leaving the country the next day to go study abroad. Our little get together was not a date... and yet somehow it was the best date I think I have ever had. She, of course, does not know that I drove 12+ hours a day for two days straight simply to spend that time with her, but I do not regret doing it for a second. When a woman makes me want to do things like that just to spend time with her talking, it really says something to me.
This woman is brilliantly intelligent, which is a very big point of interest for me, and one that is just about impossible to find where I live. She understands the value of stillness, silence and solitude, like nobody else I have ever met... things I need for myself on a regular basis. She makes me respond spontaneously with something I had thought was dead in the world, and in myself: romance, genuine courtly love. It has been a very welcome change from the constant pursuit of animal desires, which I am left with by most women I meet. She makes me feel like Lancelot pursuing Gwenevere, and I love it. Somehow she exudes the innocence and purity you imagine from a deep forest scene showing a crystalline lake, a unicorn and a virgin maiden petting it. I was smitten from the beginning, and there is no denying it.
Unfortunately, she is a lot younger than I am, although still in her early 20's, and having the worldly experience that I have, I know that means she's not experienced enough with life yet to appreciate what I have to offer. What she sees from me is that I am "too old", and she will have none of anything but friendship. I assessed that long before I ever told her how she affects me, accepted it, and left it to enjoying what goodness there was to enjoy. I never even told her how she affected me because I wanted her to be comfortable with me. I just appreciated conversation with her and whenever I have been around her, enjoyed her inner stillness and tranquility.
Last night, however, I did something I thought would not happen for 5 to 10 years. I told her. Everything. And she responded more positively than I expected, but still tried to shut down any romantic approach. It was actually rather amusing, considering that I was making no effort at pursuit, sine I knew before hand that she would do that.
But it occurs to me that this must have been Sex Magnet's doing. I would not have told her... indeed, had not told her for the three years I have known her... and then last night, in an exhausted fit of working too hard and being overwhelmed by the romantic response she inspires me to... I told her. Don't know if that's a good or bad thing yet, but she enjoyed the romance of it. Perhaps eventually I will change her mind and she will be mine, if only for a little while... such a woman as this, unfortunately, will never be still in love. If only meeting such a wondrous woman were not so rare.
I am liking that SM is pushing me to be more forthright, while at the same time preventing my tongue from waggling in ways that make my mouth taste of foot, even when I am exhausted. I also like that SM has not killed my romantic response. New game afoot now. We shall see what happens.
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The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!
The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!
