Mojam's E2 Journal

[Zane]

In the book "The Confidence Gap" the author wrote about himself-

My low self-confidence also played out in intimate relationships. I was so afraid of rejection, I never asked girls to go out with me unless I was drunk – and they usually only said ‘yes’ if they were drunk too! On those rare occasions when I did actually have a girlfriend, I would usually end the relationship after two weeks. I figured if I ended it quickly, she wouldn’t get a chance to realise how ‘inadequate’ I was; in other words, I got to reject her before she could reject me.
I had similar problems with studying. At medical school, I was convinced that I was dumber than everyone else in my year, and whenever I tried to plough my way through all those thick, complex textbooks of anatomy, physiology and biochemistry, all my self-doubt came gushing to the surface. So what did I do? Well, I didn’t like those feelings of anxiety, or those thoughts about being dumb, so to avoid them, I avoided studying! And the consequence? For my first two years at medical school, I failed every single exam, and had to re-sit them all.

Sounds like similar to me. Hope by using E2 tool I will be able to overcome this.

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