07-08-2017, 05:00 PM
Update.
I did a week of 3 loops of hybrid last week. No sleep paralysis. This is a noticeable change. Anytime I got off hybrid and returned to it or even stayed on hybrid I would have sleep paralysis and hallucinate an ear busting high pitched sound. So that being absent was substantial.
This week I'm taking it off. I'm on vacation, I may listen while I'm on it, but maybe not. At latest I'll be back to listening before the end of the month. I'm letting the dust settle in my mind from running the program for so long. This week I've been having dreams that make it clear that something is still being processed.
I specifically had a dream about a girl I know not liking me.
I had another dream that was closer to a nightmare. My life was being taken over by some guy. Everything I had was in trouble. The people I was close to may have turned on me. I don't mean like "I don't like him anymore". I mean like whoever this was I was against had the power to turn people to want to fight/kill me. And I had to fight him directly if I wanted a life worth living. This dream truly felt like the perfect mix of nightmare fantasy and reality. It felt real enough to bother me after I woke up. In the dream, I thought about death and what I would regret not doing in my life. I truly feared for my life and I've never feared a fight before. When I woke up from this dream, I really had to think for a couple seconds if any of it was real and was relieved that it wasn't.
I had one last night where I had a new dog and I was happy. But I quickly remembered my dog that passed away and I started to cry in the dream, knowing that at some point the same would happen to my new dog. I hugged him.
I've had a dream for the past three nights. I've been remembering less details from them too. What I post above is all I can recall.
Quick Summary of Progress:
I have yet to have anything happen that lets me know that DMSI works for me. Version 2.4 was the closest to me seeing anything and even that was minor. But it was enough "minor" things in such a short span of time that so far I have to say that version showed the most promise outwardly.
Since then, it's been a bunch of mental and emotional stuff, nothing outward. No manifestations. Plenty of frustration though, especially trying to realize if an attractive girl I see is a manifestation or just me projecting that with my hopes. As of right now, I really have a hard time saying that there's a point. There have been times in the past week that I felt like I'd never achieve anything with the girls I like and I'd have to somehow figure out how to live like that. I couldn't figure that part out though because I know it'd slowly gnaw away at me for the rest of my life. Having not experienced what I wanted to with girls in college, and being close to graduating, I feel like my chances are a hell of lot worse afterwards since there's no way I'll be around so many hot girls in a small area like that.
My plan going forward is to listen to version B once I resume. Depending on how that goes, I may try version 2.4 again or even the original AOSI since I never tried it.
Sure hope that 3.2 is the rocket launch in the right direction whenever it is released.
I did a week of 3 loops of hybrid last week. No sleep paralysis. This is a noticeable change. Anytime I got off hybrid and returned to it or even stayed on hybrid I would have sleep paralysis and hallucinate an ear busting high pitched sound. So that being absent was substantial.
This week I'm taking it off. I'm on vacation, I may listen while I'm on it, but maybe not. At latest I'll be back to listening before the end of the month. I'm letting the dust settle in my mind from running the program for so long. This week I've been having dreams that make it clear that something is still being processed.
I specifically had a dream about a girl I know not liking me.
I had another dream that was closer to a nightmare. My life was being taken over by some guy. Everything I had was in trouble. The people I was close to may have turned on me. I don't mean like "I don't like him anymore". I mean like whoever this was I was against had the power to turn people to want to fight/kill me. And I had to fight him directly if I wanted a life worth living. This dream truly felt like the perfect mix of nightmare fantasy and reality. It felt real enough to bother me after I woke up. In the dream, I thought about death and what I would regret not doing in my life. I truly feared for my life and I've never feared a fight before. When I woke up from this dream, I really had to think for a couple seconds if any of it was real and was relieved that it wasn't.
I had one last night where I had a new dog and I was happy. But I quickly remembered my dog that passed away and I started to cry in the dream, knowing that at some point the same would happen to my new dog. I hugged him.
I've had a dream for the past three nights. I've been remembering less details from them too. What I post above is all I can recall.
Quick Summary of Progress:
I have yet to have anything happen that lets me know that DMSI works for me. Version 2.4 was the closest to me seeing anything and even that was minor. But it was enough "minor" things in such a short span of time that so far I have to say that version showed the most promise outwardly.
Since then, it's been a bunch of mental and emotional stuff, nothing outward. No manifestations. Plenty of frustration though, especially trying to realize if an attractive girl I see is a manifestation or just me projecting that with my hopes. As of right now, I really have a hard time saying that there's a point. There have been times in the past week that I felt like I'd never achieve anything with the girls I like and I'd have to somehow figure out how to live like that. I couldn't figure that part out though because I know it'd slowly gnaw away at me for the rest of my life. Having not experienced what I wanted to with girls in college, and being close to graduating, I feel like my chances are a hell of lot worse afterwards since there's no way I'll be around so many hot girls in a small area like that.
My plan going forward is to listen to version B once I resume. Depending on how that goes, I may try version 2.4 again or even the original AOSI since I never tried it.
Sure hope that 3.2 is the rocket launch in the right direction whenever it is released.
