DAY 25
3.1A 8 loops Hybrid
Bumped it up to 8 loops last night. Of course felt very tired the next day, but also felt the euphoria kick in. The tiredness made me less alert - this caused the goal 2 part of DMSI to soar (I felt much more confident and IDGAF) but also meant I couldn't concentrate very well at work. It was difficult to read complicated paragraphs, my brain was too fuzzy.
During my sleep with 8 loops, I dreamed I was trying to initiate sex with the female friend of mine I mentioned earlier who recently broke up with her boyfriend. I wonder if that is the sniper/manifestation aspect working on her. It was her birthday on that day too so I wished her a happy birthday and she replied with a heart and a kiss face.
I also woke up hornier and hungrier than when I just do 2 loops.
My girlfriend and I had a big argument last night, then we went to my friend's house as a couple just after the argument, then we went home and argued again. It was over something silly, but the point is she got really upset when we went to sleep and was very badly crying. I was trying to comfort her and ask her what was wrong, she told me she felt for the first time like I was falling out of love with her and that eventually I would leave her.
I assured her that I didn't feel that way, but she seemed convinced and told me that's what her gut was telling her. I think it might be because when we argued, for some reason I just felt very numb. I felt bad she was crying and hurt, but I didn't feel her pain in an empathetic way which I would usually do. I don't know if it was due to being so tired I just felt numb or DMSI giving me an IDGAF nature.
I started playing my loops last night and half way through the first one I just took the headphones out and went to sleep. No idea why I did it. Looks like my subconscious is trying to escape me giving it another 8 loops. I'll try again tonight.
3.1A 8 loops Hybrid
Bumped it up to 8 loops last night. Of course felt very tired the next day, but also felt the euphoria kick in. The tiredness made me less alert - this caused the goal 2 part of DMSI to soar (I felt much more confident and IDGAF) but also meant I couldn't concentrate very well at work. It was difficult to read complicated paragraphs, my brain was too fuzzy.
During my sleep with 8 loops, I dreamed I was trying to initiate sex with the female friend of mine I mentioned earlier who recently broke up with her boyfriend. I wonder if that is the sniper/manifestation aspect working on her. It was her birthday on that day too so I wished her a happy birthday and she replied with a heart and a kiss face.
I also woke up hornier and hungrier than when I just do 2 loops.
My girlfriend and I had a big argument last night, then we went to my friend's house as a couple just after the argument, then we went home and argued again. It was over something silly, but the point is she got really upset when we went to sleep and was very badly crying. I was trying to comfort her and ask her what was wrong, she told me she felt for the first time like I was falling out of love with her and that eventually I would leave her.
I assured her that I didn't feel that way, but she seemed convinced and told me that's what her gut was telling her. I think it might be because when we argued, for some reason I just felt very numb. I felt bad she was crying and hurt, but I didn't feel her pain in an empathetic way which I would usually do. I don't know if it was due to being so tired I just felt numb or DMSI giving me an IDGAF nature.
I started playing my loops last night and half way through the first one I just took the headphones out and went to sleep. No idea why I did it. Looks like my subconscious is trying to escape me giving it another 8 loops. I'll try again tonight.
