06-15-2017, 11:27 PM
(This post was last modified: 06-15-2017, 11:51 PM by mojamhaque.)
My thinking patterns are irritated me very frequently. Some of my thinking patterns are as-
Fear of reading:
If I don’t read what will happen in my future. I have no financial stability. So I have to read more and more for income sufficient money. I have to know a lot of thinks. So I have to read and read. But when I seat for read I can’t concentrate. Start with one topic and frequently move to another topic. At that time I think “Probably that topic is more important to me. So I have to complete that first then have to go to this one” and due to this thinking I frequently switch topic to topic, book to book and finally complete nothing.
Fear of Death:
If I die what will happen with my family. I don’t have enough money left for them. They don’t have nobody but me. What they will do in absence of me. So me have to income a lot of money for them so that they can survive in absence of me.
Worrying about Career:
What will be my career? What will be my final destination? I have to income a lot of money for a nice future. So I need to have a nice career. Do I destroy my career by wasting time?
Worry about performance:
Am I a good performer? Am I know everything that require to perform the job? Can I actually complete the job smoothly? What will be the measurement of my performance? Would it be good or worst? I want to be the best but why I can’t? etc. etc.
Fear of Job:
What will happen to me or my family if I loss the job? I don’t have enough money.. How I will survive with my family if I become jobless? How I will manage another job? I don’t have enough skill, I have to work hard for increase my skills… Would the salary of that job will be as handsome as current one? Etc. etc.
Fear of my boss:
What my boss thinks about me? Is it good or bad? Will he dismiss me from this job? Is he mind for my attitude/behavior? Is he angry with me? Am I able to do everything that my boss instructed me to do? Am I able to do everything in the same way as my boss instructed me? Did I do everything same as my boss advised? Etc etc.
Worry about money
How I will get enough money. I have a lot of loan. I have to pay them. I need a lot of money for my family, for my future. I need my own residence. How I will get money to build that? I wish I have a nice car. I wish I have billions of amount in my bank account. etc etc.
I always remain worried by thinking above bullshits. All my joys and happiness are gone from me due to those thinking. I can't concentrate in anything, I don't get confidence to do anything, I remain demotivated always, I Can't think anything deeply, feel very weak both physically and mentally. I just heart and soul want to get rid from those thinking.
Fear of reading:
If I don’t read what will happen in my future. I have no financial stability. So I have to read more and more for income sufficient money. I have to know a lot of thinks. So I have to read and read. But when I seat for read I can’t concentrate. Start with one topic and frequently move to another topic. At that time I think “Probably that topic is more important to me. So I have to complete that first then have to go to this one” and due to this thinking I frequently switch topic to topic, book to book and finally complete nothing.
Fear of Death:
If I die what will happen with my family. I don’t have enough money left for them. They don’t have nobody but me. What they will do in absence of me. So me have to income a lot of money for them so that they can survive in absence of me.
Worrying about Career:
What will be my career? What will be my final destination? I have to income a lot of money for a nice future. So I need to have a nice career. Do I destroy my career by wasting time?
Worry about performance:
Am I a good performer? Am I know everything that require to perform the job? Can I actually complete the job smoothly? What will be the measurement of my performance? Would it be good or worst? I want to be the best but why I can’t? etc. etc.
Fear of Job:
What will happen to me or my family if I loss the job? I don’t have enough money.. How I will survive with my family if I become jobless? How I will manage another job? I don’t have enough skill, I have to work hard for increase my skills… Would the salary of that job will be as handsome as current one? Etc. etc.
Fear of my boss:
What my boss thinks about me? Is it good or bad? Will he dismiss me from this job? Is he mind for my attitude/behavior? Is he angry with me? Am I able to do everything that my boss instructed me to do? Am I able to do everything in the same way as my boss instructed me? Did I do everything same as my boss advised? Etc etc.
Worry about money
How I will get enough money. I have a lot of loan. I have to pay them. I need a lot of money for my family, for my future. I need my own residence. How I will get money to build that? I wish I have a nice car. I wish I have billions of amount in my bank account. etc etc.
I always remain worried by thinking above bullshits. All my joys and happiness are gone from me due to those thinking. I can't concentrate in anything, I don't get confidence to do anything, I remain demotivated always, I Can't think anything deeply, feel very weak both physically and mentally. I just heart and soul want to get rid from those thinking.
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