Mojam's E2 Journal

[mojamhaque]

Date- 07/06/2017
Day-07
Total Listened Hour- 08 hours

Thinking pattern changes more frequently. Sometimes it's cool, sometime feels angry, sometimes full of enthusiastic, sometimes depressed, sometimes very frustrated and demotivated just can't read my mentality.

Had a deep sleep at night but when wake up from sleep felt sleepless. Provably may be due to use of 5G. Try to listening limit up to 8 hours but sometimes it exceeds due to managing the schedule of office.

Feel increased the interest of office work and my anger on my boring boss decreased.

Interest on reading is decreased. Last two nights failed to read any single words. Hope reading interest will increase very soon.

Seems life becoming more complicated. Lack of motivation just depressing me contentiously.

Sometimes feel very tensed due to my future. What will be my future? I don't have enough money. What will happen with my family if I left very soon. I have to collect a lot of money? How can I do that? What about my career? How I will improve my career? I need to improve my career-- but I can't due to procrastination. Even when I sit for reading/study I can't concentrate properly. Very week in Mathematics and Algorithms. How I will improve them? I don't have enough patience for reading topics by topics. That's why I frequently change my reading subjects and topics. So progress level is 0. Me have to be mentally steady but how? What is my future destination? Continue with job or business? If business then how? If I have a big ill how it will cure? I don't have enough money for treatment... In our country it is really very hard to effort the cost of foods, treatments, living, clothing, education etc. etc.. etc.. types thinking causes me huge tensed and sometimes my blood pressure increasing.

Sometimes feel very sexy and feels the necessity to have s..x with different cute looking girls...Although I don't want to think about this right now.

My late mother and cousin (who passed away after 2 months of my mother) coming in my thinking each night when I go for sleep. Feel very sorrow for those loses. This irritate my sleep. 02-03 times break my sleep for those thinking(at the very beginning of my sleep) and once my sleep is disturbed then it takes a lot to time to come again. I love my mother very much. Sometime feel that she stands behind me. But when open my eyes nothing found. Need to get rid from such feelings and thinking.

One day you will read all this journal of ur and will realise that there was nothing to worry about cause life will be going exactly ur way. You will be in charge of ur Mind and body.

Thanks Zane. You are really inspiring. I try to write each and everything that feel each day so that I don't miss anything and observes what's are happening with me.