I feel more relaxed than before, TRE exercises are doing wonders along with meditation and exercise.
Some weird thing in my family: There have surfaced some kind of power-battle and I don't get where it's coming from. Previously it's been pretty chill, my mom has been as she always has, but now I even feel pushed down (not directly but the feeling) when just sitting and having dinner. Like they are so up into themselves that they can't see me. Weird. Family shouldn't be about proving one self to another, it's should be about trust, and for some reason there is not trust there. It's no a trusting environment at all.
My dad is pretty strong in himself so I don't think that it's getting to him at all, but me at this moment, I don't enjoy it. I think it may be caused by my mother and her issues. I to have issues, but I try to keep them to myself (Well i talk about them from time to time, but I try not to spill it over someone else). But my mom is making all this kind of weird faces when my dad is telling stories, looking bored, and just all this kind of b*llshit things and it's just so weird. Maybe I didn't think about it before, but now when I do it's just so disrespectful. Anyway, weird stuff, but I manage to keep to myself and feel alright through it. One thing I know is that I don't trust my mom. At all.
And all of these things are concerning me WAY more than they should. I feel drawn into the situation, and have a hard time "thinking my way through". It's like i have a hard time to find my own interpretation of things and I am afraid of falling into others perspective.
Some weird thing in my family: There have surfaced some kind of power-battle and I don't get where it's coming from. Previously it's been pretty chill, my mom has been as she always has, but now I even feel pushed down (not directly but the feeling) when just sitting and having dinner. Like they are so up into themselves that they can't see me. Weird. Family shouldn't be about proving one self to another, it's should be about trust, and for some reason there is not trust there. It's no a trusting environment at all.
My dad is pretty strong in himself so I don't think that it's getting to him at all, but me at this moment, I don't enjoy it. I think it may be caused by my mother and her issues. I to have issues, but I try to keep them to myself (Well i talk about them from time to time, but I try not to spill it over someone else). But my mom is making all this kind of weird faces when my dad is telling stories, looking bored, and just all this kind of b*llshit things and it's just so weird. Maybe I didn't think about it before, but now when I do it's just so disrespectful. Anyway, weird stuff, but I manage to keep to myself and feel alright through it. One thing I know is that I don't trust my mom. At all.
And all of these things are concerning me WAY more than they should. I feel drawn into the situation, and have a hard time "thinking my way through". It's like i have a hard time to find my own interpretation of things and I am afraid of falling into others perspective.
