[DMSI] 3.1

[ReeZoX]

Have you ever seen the movie, "The Family Man," with Nicholas Cage?

If you're having a lot of conflicting thoughts and questions about settling down, it's a good movie to watch. Check it out.

I'll make sure to watch it

Things did clear up for me, as a matter of fact, the day after I wrote it all. Almost synchronized to when I finished the book.

There is nothing wrong with settling down, as long you do it for the right reasons. The wrong reasons doing it out of comfortableness and fear of what "might" happen if I do this and that. So while I know that I'm gonna settle down, it's not the right time at this moment.

While Hannibal, Einstein, and Picasso had their problems and perhaps didn't really achieve a "real victory". They had at least fought the good fight. They were staying true to themselves and doing what they were supposed to do, they had found their life purpose and were staying true to it, whether or not they achieved success.

In this part, the author quotes a poem.

"He has achieved success
who has lived well,
laughed often, and loved much;

who has enjoyed the trust of
pure women,

the respect of intelligent men and
the love of little children;

who has filled his niche and accomplished his task;

who has left the world better than he found it
whether by an improved poppy,
a perfect poem or a rescued soul;

who has never lacked appreciation of Earth's beauty
or failed to express it;

who has always looked for the best in others and
given them the best he had;

whose life was an inspiration
whose memory a benediction."

This does not say you have to conquer Rome in order to be successful. And it's not about achieving those kinds of things. Success is about being true to yourself and staying in your calling, whatever that may be while caring for your "neighbors".

The whole week has been kinda dead, no "real" external results. Now I seemingly rather get results from the clearing, giving the effect of increased confidence and less fear of acting in certain ways. Giving an increased sexy IDGAF vibe.

Went onto B yesterday (Friday) didn't happen anything specific, except heat while listening.
Had a great time the whole day with decent interactions, the hardest part for me is still being to find girls/people who I am attracted to that I want to "put my focus on". I get bored so easily by people that I easily run to the next group of people I know, in hope that something interesting will happen. But most of the times it doesn't. This works against me, never allowing me to really connect with people, nor them with me.

I have stopped listening to the brainwave program during the nights. I feel like I was overdoing my brain not allowing any time to rest. Ever since conversations just flow, uncertain if caused by DMSI or the program. Since both may have these effects.

I met a girl yesterday/last week, blonde good looking. Beautiful body. Had a really good interaction with her. She is definitely attractive and I've yet to see anything that would "disqualify" her, other than her being younger than me. Which in itself shouldn't be a problem.

Today I have felt very off, but the heat has been insane.

The biggest problem for me with 3.1 is, without doubt, the masturbating as a part of the resistance.

I'll be running B for at least 2 weeks. DMSI has it's best opportunity to make things happen these 2 weeks, hence B over A.