My healing journey - E2, Cold showers, Root chakra meditation

[Daredevil]

I more and more realize that I seriously have a big problem with my mom. And I'm not the guy who have problems with people in general, even when I'm feeling like shit.

She are always angry when she get up, slams doors, are needy, when she doesn't get attention she get upset, angry. She is judgemental, loud, feel sorry for herself, act as a victim.

A normal day I get it, she is my mom and you only have one mom. But seriously, man even I have to be able to not always have to look for the best in people all the f*cking time, because this behavior really get on my nerve and ruin my days sometime. A person acting like that need to get their shit together, seriously. F*ck me. I just want to chill and have a good time when I'm home at my parents, not get dragged into her moodiness.

And I hate being this sensitive to all shit. On a normal day this would be "so my mom is really annoying, whatever". This is not me.

You need to Look at the Devouring Mother Archetype. It might help you understand what is happening here.