01-05-2012, 09:03 PM
Stage 5 - Day 39,
Shit. I've overdone this stage because I thought whatever lets go with it after you replies and first now I see that I've gone some days too far. Interesting things have happened to me though but it's still not what I want.
I mean sure some women, who I don't really want, do find me interesting and want me physically, what else??
My view of women has changed man... They are human-beings who only thinks of what they can gain from you, pleasure/sex and that they are very empathic/sympathetic. If they don't see the pleasure side in you, they'll be like you aren't there.
It's funny. I think most guys have the view that they want MORE to be sympathetic and empathic than to be sexual and pleasurable. That's what I least felt/thought before all this crisis I've been through.
Shit. I have been a wussy and it hurts to think that I have been that for so long time! (even though when I didn't like a girl that much but was a bit horny, I would just hook up with her).
I mean.. Shit! I love women but my reality is twisted. I can only do things to not lose my power and just present myself out to the world as best as I can.
I have begun MMA besides my kungfu, just to get back from the christmas and new years holidays and HOLY SHIT, it makes me feel good. Women are just distractions in my awareness now, though I still love them and have to get this reality-change installed correctly and fully in my mind!
A VERY good and old friend of mine have started for a while, trying to tell me things that is right (just because he has got a girlfriend and I haven't been very successful with women most of my life and I know he hasn't either but I'm sure he feels good about knowing that he "has" something I don't), or at least he speaks with this kind of attitude that he is the "wise man". He doesn't do it very arrogantly though, which gives him a chance with me. I don't like it but I don't think it's right to tell him to not tell me what is right though. I don't like to brag but I've heard that I am arrogant.
Honestly, I'm in between being direct and say f*** you when such a situation happens or just be whatever.. I know who I am (which I've done most of the times but I still feel a small annoyance in me).
I would appreciate some feedback. It's very important to know what kind of direction I want this relationship to go right now to me. Thanks in advance.
Starting Stage 6 tonight. Hmm.. I can't imagine whats waiting for me in this stage...
-LM
Shit. I've overdone this stage because I thought whatever lets go with it after you replies and first now I see that I've gone some days too far. Interesting things have happened to me though but it's still not what I want.
I mean sure some women, who I don't really want, do find me interesting and want me physically, what else??
My view of women has changed man... They are human-beings who only thinks of what they can gain from you, pleasure/sex and that they are very empathic/sympathetic. If they don't see the pleasure side in you, they'll be like you aren't there.
It's funny. I think most guys have the view that they want MORE to be sympathetic and empathic than to be sexual and pleasurable. That's what I least felt/thought before all this crisis I've been through.
Shit. I have been a wussy and it hurts to think that I have been that for so long time! (even though when I didn't like a girl that much but was a bit horny, I would just hook up with her).
I mean.. Shit! I love women but my reality is twisted. I can only do things to not lose my power and just present myself out to the world as best as I can.
I have begun MMA besides my kungfu, just to get back from the christmas and new years holidays and HOLY SHIT, it makes me feel good. Women are just distractions in my awareness now, though I still love them and have to get this reality-change installed correctly and fully in my mind!
A VERY good and old friend of mine have started for a while, trying to tell me things that is right (just because he has got a girlfriend and I haven't been very successful with women most of my life and I know he hasn't either but I'm sure he feels good about knowing that he "has" something I don't), or at least he speaks with this kind of attitude that he is the "wise man". He doesn't do it very arrogantly though, which gives him a chance with me. I don't like it but I don't think it's right to tell him to not tell me what is right though. I don't like to brag but I've heard that I am arrogant.
Honestly, I'm in between being direct and say f*** you when such a situation happens or just be whatever.. I know who I am (which I've done most of the times but I still feel a small annoyance in me).
I would appreciate some feedback. It's very important to know what kind of direction I want this relationship to go right now to me. Thanks in advance.
Starting Stage 6 tonight. Hmm.. I can't imagine whats waiting for me in this stage...
-LM
1. Do whatever you want.. risk whatever your gut tells you because.. you know you have good intentions.
2. Pressure forms the man.
3. Clarity gives space for better decisions.
