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Done Tai Chi 46 days (1 missed day) and Yoga for 14 times (2 missed days).
I'm starting to like the Tai Chi practice and feel its benefits as I'm able to loose up tensions in my muscles, and it's just a nice thing to do. I also seem to be able to open up my heart with one of the movements combined with breathing.
The Yoga is still really grueling, damn Yoga is really hard! I set up 9 poses that I go through every time and it takes maybe 15 minutes and I'm always really relaxed afterwards. But I can feel that I'm getting stronger and having more balance every time I do it. I'll try to do every pose for 20 or 30 breaths.
This pose always make me shake in my arms, and I feel that I have some kind of muscle blockage in my arms (it's the one i dread the most, but becoming better and better
)
![[Image: 15511001032011103828.jpg]](https://images.cdn-outlet.com/yo-images/guide/yoga/15511001032011103828.jpg)
Oh and this pose is a real pain in the ass!
![[Image: Downward-facing-dog.jpg]](http://easyday.snydle.com/files/2015/01/Downward-facing-dog.jpg)
Edit 1:
Oh yeah, I feel more grounded as well. Still a bit light-headed (which I believe is what causing the ungroundiness-feeling) but steadily improvements!
Edit 2:
Btw. Read a great forum-post about a guy who quit smoking weed due to that he was becoming depressed and anxious, and his way back to "normal". He wrote about "dantian" which is three power centers in the body according to eastern philosophy (belly, chest and head) and how weed move your energy towards the upper one, from the lower one - causing you do "live in your head". Anyway, good article and gave me some inspiration. Here it is:
https://forum.grasscity.com/threads/bene...nd.745508/
Edit 3:
My mom got me a name of a psychiatrist (and i know she just want to help), but it all got me irritated, telling her that I am getting better myself. I somehow have an aversion to getting help, as I'm not feeling in contact with myself and therefore seeking counsel from the outside would be hard. And my mind is still a bit chattered and all it needs is rest. I am just afraid that I'm gonna get into a position where I loose control, which I have been in before. Loosing control over myself, that scares the shit out of me, and even though it may seem irrational to someone else, I may have my reasons for it.
I need to find some basic sense of self before I go outside and find counsel. I however think that it will be awesome at a later stage to better understand myself.
Done Tai Chi 46 days (1 missed day) and Yoga for 14 times (2 missed days).
I'm starting to like the Tai Chi practice and feel its benefits as I'm able to loose up tensions in my muscles, and it's just a nice thing to do. I also seem to be able to open up my heart with one of the movements combined with breathing.
The Yoga is still really grueling, damn Yoga is really hard! I set up 9 poses that I go through every time and it takes maybe 15 minutes and I'm always really relaxed afterwards. But I can feel that I'm getting stronger and having more balance every time I do it. I'll try to do every pose for 20 or 30 breaths.
This pose always make me shake in my arms, and I feel that I have some kind of muscle blockage in my arms (it's the one i dread the most, but becoming better and better
)Oh and this pose is a real pain in the ass!
Edit 1:
Oh yeah, I feel more grounded as well. Still a bit light-headed (which I believe is what causing the ungroundiness-feeling) but steadily improvements!
Edit 2:
Btw. Read a great forum-post about a guy who quit smoking weed due to that he was becoming depressed and anxious, and his way back to "normal". He wrote about "dantian" which is three power centers in the body according to eastern philosophy (belly, chest and head) and how weed move your energy towards the upper one, from the lower one - causing you do "live in your head". Anyway, good article and gave me some inspiration. Here it is:
https://forum.grasscity.com/threads/bene...nd.745508/
Edit 3:
My mom got me a name of a psychiatrist (and i know she just want to help), but it all got me irritated, telling her that I am getting better myself. I somehow have an aversion to getting help, as I'm not feeling in contact with myself and therefore seeking counsel from the outside would be hard. And my mind is still a bit chattered and all it needs is rest. I am just afraid that I'm gonna get into a position where I loose control, which I have been in before. Loosing control over myself, that scares the shit out of me, and even though it may seem irrational to someone else, I may have my reasons for it.
I need to find some basic sense of self before I go outside and find counsel. I however think that it will be awesome at a later stage to better understand myself.
