05-08-2017, 07:34 PM
DMSI 3.1 A Day 65
Got a lot to discuss for this entry....Had many different interactions with woman this weekend so got a lot of dmsi testing in.
So lets start off by talking about my friend who Im currently training to get in peak shape for her wedding. So we have gone on walks in the past together as I live in a neighborhood with a nice trail that winds through it. We havent gone on any since last year though. She texted me asking if we could go on one after her session which I was kind of surprised she would want to do as she goes through a pretty strenuous full body workout and our walks are typically two hours long or so. That would be the last thing I would want to do after one of my own full body training sessions anyways. I said sure and she replied back with a "perfect, cant wait!(big smiley)"
So during our time together it was as it usually is but perhaps even more iois than normal. She giggles a ton at the things I said per usual, but she seemed to hold eye contact longer with me than normal. Also at one point I was adjusting a weight while telling her a story(The weights area is behind my couch) and she was on my couch with her body pressed up against the top end and head looking over intently at me.
So onto our walk after her session. What ive noticed is she tends to refer to and treat her fiance like a major beta. She was talking about how people asked her why shes doesnt live with him and she simply said "Cause I dont want to." "I feel like it would be annoying right now." Not exactly something you would think someone would say about their fiance lol. Or at times he will call when we are hanging out and she wont answer it and will just ignore his call. Im like "Thats not very nice." And she just laughed and said "Im busy right now". Theres been a lot of different instances of her doing this type of stuff and referring to him in a needy/beta type of light. I think hes a good dude but shes def the one in control of the relationship from what I can tell.
So when we hugged goodbye I had my shirt off(had to catch them rays and try to unghostify my pale cracka ass self) and she rubbed my back in what I can only describe as a more sexual type of way than normal. Typically when we hug goodbye its the normal kind of just hand on the back for a moment or pat on the back type of thing, but this time she slowly moved her hand across my back like she was enjoying feeling it.So that was kind of new
Onto that night. Went out with some friends and hit up some bars.To start off right away when I was in line to get a drink some random girl unnecessarily grabbed my side and held onto it as she was moving through the crowd.
We ended up talking with some girls that one of them knew. They were averagish looking, nothing special. At one point though one of them straight up asked me "can I feel your arms?" Im like "Lol I supposes..." then she goes and squeezes my bicep. I then go "That will be 5 bucks". To which she says "I think I have a dollar" and starts legit digging through her purse hahaha. Im like "Im joking lol." Her friend then goes"You have a lot of veins and started touching my forearms. I felt like a total piece of meat, and was completely cool with that. Thats all the juicy stuff for that night
The following night I went out to one of my friends small little group parties. At one point two of the girls in the friend group were talking to me and I went into this very chill state of mind where I felt very relaxed and witty. It was a lot like how I used to feel when I was in my prime confidence wise with woman. They both reacted and were giggling and touching me after I would say things. One of them also grabbed my ass I think on two different occasions during the night.
Yesterday one of my friends had a grillout and invited a bunch of people over and I managed to stop bye at tje tail end of it. I got more of the same attraction wise from two of the girls there.
So to summarize I feel like this weekend I was getting more iois than is the norm for me. I am also feeling more relaxed when talking to woman compared to normal. THAT is the part that I like even more so than even the external results. Im after getting the internal state back on track and feeling cool, calm, and confident/sexy as fuck to the level that I used to be at and beyond. Even when I get some of the iois I just dont feel like I match whats going on internally for the most part. Like i said though i felt more comfortable than normal this past weekend though so thats a step in the right direction.
Im still getting bursts of weird anxiety/thoughts/feelings but it has at least not been as constant as it was there for while. Thats about it for now
Got a lot to discuss for this entry....Had many different interactions with woman this weekend so got a lot of dmsi testing in.
So lets start off by talking about my friend who Im currently training to get in peak shape for her wedding. So we have gone on walks in the past together as I live in a neighborhood with a nice trail that winds through it. We havent gone on any since last year though. She texted me asking if we could go on one after her session which I was kind of surprised she would want to do as she goes through a pretty strenuous full body workout and our walks are typically two hours long or so. That would be the last thing I would want to do after one of my own full body training sessions anyways. I said sure and she replied back with a "perfect, cant wait!(big smiley)"
So during our time together it was as it usually is but perhaps even more iois than normal. She giggles a ton at the things I said per usual, but she seemed to hold eye contact longer with me than normal. Also at one point I was adjusting a weight while telling her a story(The weights area is behind my couch) and she was on my couch with her body pressed up against the top end and head looking over intently at me.
So onto our walk after her session. What ive noticed is she tends to refer to and treat her fiance like a major beta. She was talking about how people asked her why shes doesnt live with him and she simply said "Cause I dont want to." "I feel like it would be annoying right now." Not exactly something you would think someone would say about their fiance lol. Or at times he will call when we are hanging out and she wont answer it and will just ignore his call. Im like "Thats not very nice." And she just laughed and said "Im busy right now". Theres been a lot of different instances of her doing this type of stuff and referring to him in a needy/beta type of light. I think hes a good dude but shes def the one in control of the relationship from what I can tell.
So when we hugged goodbye I had my shirt off(had to catch them rays and try to unghostify my pale cracka ass self) and she rubbed my back in what I can only describe as a more sexual type of way than normal. Typically when we hug goodbye its the normal kind of just hand on the back for a moment or pat on the back type of thing, but this time she slowly moved her hand across my back like she was enjoying feeling it.So that was kind of new
Onto that night. Went out with some friends and hit up some bars.To start off right away when I was in line to get a drink some random girl unnecessarily grabbed my side and held onto it as she was moving through the crowd.
We ended up talking with some girls that one of them knew. They were averagish looking, nothing special. At one point though one of them straight up asked me "can I feel your arms?" Im like "Lol I supposes..." then she goes and squeezes my bicep. I then go "That will be 5 bucks". To which she says "I think I have a dollar" and starts legit digging through her purse hahaha. Im like "Im joking lol." Her friend then goes"You have a lot of veins and started touching my forearms. I felt like a total piece of meat, and was completely cool with that. Thats all the juicy stuff for that night
The following night I went out to one of my friends small little group parties. At one point two of the girls in the friend group were talking to me and I went into this very chill state of mind where I felt very relaxed and witty. It was a lot like how I used to feel when I was in my prime confidence wise with woman. They both reacted and were giggling and touching me after I would say things. One of them also grabbed my ass I think on two different occasions during the night.
Yesterday one of my friends had a grillout and invited a bunch of people over and I managed to stop bye at tje tail end of it. I got more of the same attraction wise from two of the girls there.
So to summarize I feel like this weekend I was getting more iois than is the norm for me. I am also feeling more relaxed when talking to woman compared to normal. THAT is the part that I like even more so than even the external results. Im after getting the internal state back on track and feeling cool, calm, and confident/sexy as fuck to the level that I used to be at and beyond. Even when I get some of the iois I just dont feel like I match whats going on internally for the most part. Like i said though i felt more comfortable than normal this past weekend though so thats a step in the right direction.
Im still getting bursts of weird anxiety/thoughts/feelings but it has at least not been as constant as it was there for while. Thats about it for now
