My dreams start to become more and more lucid.
I seem to have a root that blocks me, like, my inner game and stuff is blowing up yet its like some gates remain pretty much shut and a wsr is fought out. As soon as I consciously assist through some affirming stuff its like lifting up yet seems temporary shit
Its like I know it all, inside I know it and resonate strongly and go out but am fed up with the whole blocking thing going on. Its starting to throw me in serious depression, anxiety and hopeless shit.
Its almost 2 worlds. One is the growth and dominance and reality through my mind, creating and the knowledge is there, another is frsaking chameleon shutdown stuff. It stirrs things up. I want it to break even if this current shit shakes me to my core.
I once was so social, play around, grabbing women left and right, make outs and shit automatically, yet right now its almost being incognito undercover and in lockdown. I still am social and playfull tho in essence and seductive.
Not to say, I'm starting to smoke again. Fucking crap. Knowing this negative shit diesnt help, indulging in extremes and going into such states have proven helpfull and solution more then once. Like going insane is a fear and so embrave it. Right now breakdown is almost right around the fucking corner. Purge. Im honestly done with such repetitional habits. I know its easy. It really is. Some menral blow ups and mismatches like wtf. Fuck all dependency, may it be environment. All frames thrown at me are toys.
I learn so much lately, so much us deepening and right now it feels damn hopeless. All my aspects of life are deepening, insights snowballing to the point its like one shift is overrun by a bigger one and followed up by the next last few days. In the department of seducing, pull in, pull back, neg, creating my reality and what not. Its all so damn clear yet my body is very tense, shaking and fainty like its going to give our now including getting aroused. Its damn sure and clear I attract abundance of women in my lufe till the point it'll be drowning in pussy level and none can leave my dick alone. This is damn sure as of now. Intense is an understatement. Ill create my own league. I seduce myself. I flip all scripts around. Im into myself more then into hers. A king being dormant. An prize. Way superior. They sense it.
Externals are showing. Just these issues and traits that surface are an hindrance atm. Its the mere beginning of it all. Im aroused fully by myself. She craves me, my dick, my energy, my everything.
Wrote enough now. Im exploding. Growing. Getting and becoming new. Not to say, lots of rule 4 stuff in my life aswell till the point of being mindblown, amazed and in awe. This stuff is real.
Now hypnosis, nlp, playfullness, seducing and deeper layers of communication is something. As I speak, I create. Hell yeah.
Lol, emotional release is now. This state is dead. Down on myself yet seeing the light.
/end rant
edit1: direct game is where its at for it seems and feels natural aswell, like fuck all, IDGAf, direct picking bluntly, bold and full confident without any regards or anything, incredibly straight up direct, the "yeah you, come here, whats your name blablabla"its not really agressive but absolutely clear in it, total boldness. like a buffet in picking and choosing. herein lies some social mastery in a way, et embracing the chaos as well. as soon as I embrace the chaos in all of this, nothing else matters, and all becomes well, great reference, great experience, just reframe that shit, and being in the chaos itself, becoming chaos.
Direct is where its at for me it seems, and come in contact with it, no regards for looks, just because I want to, direct compelling, dominant commanding ways/nature. no thinking, go all in. even if exposed, bluntly admit or whetever. All about vibe, deliverance and solidness, shittests fall into irrelevance then.
I seem to have a root that blocks me, like, my inner game and stuff is blowing up yet its like some gates remain pretty much shut and a wsr is fought out. As soon as I consciously assist through some affirming stuff its like lifting up yet seems temporary shit
Its like I know it all, inside I know it and resonate strongly and go out but am fed up with the whole blocking thing going on. Its starting to throw me in serious depression, anxiety and hopeless shit.
Its almost 2 worlds. One is the growth and dominance and reality through my mind, creating and the knowledge is there, another is frsaking chameleon shutdown stuff. It stirrs things up. I want it to break even if this current shit shakes me to my core.
I once was so social, play around, grabbing women left and right, make outs and shit automatically, yet right now its almost being incognito undercover and in lockdown. I still am social and playfull tho in essence and seductive.
Not to say, I'm starting to smoke again. Fucking crap. Knowing this negative shit diesnt help, indulging in extremes and going into such states have proven helpfull and solution more then once. Like going insane is a fear and so embrave it. Right now breakdown is almost right around the fucking corner. Purge. Im honestly done with such repetitional habits. I know its easy. It really is. Some menral blow ups and mismatches like wtf. Fuck all dependency, may it be environment. All frames thrown at me are toys.
I learn so much lately, so much us deepening and right now it feels damn hopeless. All my aspects of life are deepening, insights snowballing to the point its like one shift is overrun by a bigger one and followed up by the next last few days. In the department of seducing, pull in, pull back, neg, creating my reality and what not. Its all so damn clear yet my body is very tense, shaking and fainty like its going to give our now including getting aroused. Its damn sure and clear I attract abundance of women in my lufe till the point it'll be drowning in pussy level and none can leave my dick alone. This is damn sure as of now. Intense is an understatement. Ill create my own league. I seduce myself. I flip all scripts around. Im into myself more then into hers. A king being dormant. An prize. Way superior. They sense it.
Externals are showing. Just these issues and traits that surface are an hindrance atm. Its the mere beginning of it all. Im aroused fully by myself. She craves me, my dick, my energy, my everything.
Wrote enough now. Im exploding. Growing. Getting and becoming new. Not to say, lots of rule 4 stuff in my life aswell till the point of being mindblown, amazed and in awe. This stuff is real.
Now hypnosis, nlp, playfullness, seducing and deeper layers of communication is something. As I speak, I create. Hell yeah.
Lol, emotional release is now. This state is dead. Down on myself yet seeing the light.
/end rant
edit1: direct game is where its at for it seems and feels natural aswell, like fuck all, IDGAf, direct picking bluntly, bold and full confident without any regards or anything, incredibly straight up direct, the "yeah you, come here, whats your name blablabla"its not really agressive but absolutely clear in it, total boldness. like a buffet in picking and choosing. herein lies some social mastery in a way, et embracing the chaos as well. as soon as I embrace the chaos in all of this, nothing else matters, and all becomes well, great reference, great experience, just reframe that shit, and being in the chaos itself, becoming chaos.
Direct is where its at for me it seems, and come in contact with it, no regards for looks, just because I want to, direct compelling, dominant commanding ways/nature. no thinking, go all in. even if exposed, bluntly admit or whetever. All about vibe, deliverance and solidness, shittests fall into irrelevance then.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
