05-02-2017, 01:51 PM
I'm glad I went back to A.
I've been singing a lot more. On Saturday I "got feeling" and started really singing along a song. Not a sad one, but sometime in it, I start crying. Like really crying. Happened twice on Saturday and once on Sunday. This weekend I cried more than I'd been crying the latest 10 years combined...
DMSI must've really hit something. I've been having a tough time with no-fap. Even porn as well... So I have downloaded an app on my phone blocking every porn site and keywords.
Didn't really notice anything externally, I suppose all energy must've been used internally. At least that's kinda what it feels like. And I also think it's reasonable considering I've been having troubles with eating and no-fap. Not leaving any energy for DMSI to actually work with
That's all getting fixed now.
That was basically whole last week. Bad routines, nothing externally and things like that. Well, a girl did subtly ask me to hang out. She's a cutie but not my type. A bit too thin to be of my type. So I did what any normal guy would do - Act like I'm not getting her hint.
But after I've done the crying? Well, externals are back, but still on the "subtle side". But there is definitely a change.
On Monday I was barely outside, but the few girls I saw definitely were interested. Still very subtle, I wouldn't notice it at all unless I was looking for sudden changes in behavior.
Today I went kayaking, the sun was out giving energy to DMSI and again every girl I saw was looking at me. Had strangers starting conversations as well. One dog went crazy about me. That was before running today's loop.
I was only able to get 1 loop in today. But when I arrived at the train going into the city I see a girl walking out of the station. She looks straight at me and looks confused, she goes back into the station and up the stairs. She has a beautiful ass. She goes through the gates, and now she walks back. Back outside the gates!?
This girl literally went back the same damn way she came from, upstairs through the gates. And then goes all the way outside again. All this for giving me a view of her ass? Well, I certainly ain't complaining.
Other than that there is not really anything worth noticing. Eye contact, hair flips etc. etc. but that's no fun.
This is day 58 of A, I've done 2 days of B. I know I'm not done with A. But from tomorrow I'll be going to B. I want more results, not necessarily from girls but life-changing events. Financially, logistically, social settings and that. Right now I think my biggest problem is not being around girls that I actually want, and I want DMSI to change that together with other things in life. Or I'm simply convincing myself to escape away.
I will be returning to A eventually, unless DMSI makes me achieve my personal goals, as of which I would no longer need DMSI for that moment and in that case would jump on MLS. Possibly something else depending on which time-range we're at then
I've been singing a lot more. On Saturday I "got feeling" and started really singing along a song. Not a sad one, but sometime in it, I start crying. Like really crying. Happened twice on Saturday and once on Sunday. This weekend I cried more than I'd been crying the latest 10 years combined...
DMSI must've really hit something. I've been having a tough time with no-fap. Even porn as well... So I have downloaded an app on my phone blocking every porn site and keywords.
Didn't really notice anything externally, I suppose all energy must've been used internally. At least that's kinda what it feels like. And I also think it's reasonable considering I've been having troubles with eating and no-fap. Not leaving any energy for DMSI to actually work with
That's all getting fixed now.
That was basically whole last week. Bad routines, nothing externally and things like that. Well, a girl did subtly ask me to hang out. She's a cutie but not my type. A bit too thin to be of my type. So I did what any normal guy would do - Act like I'm not getting her hint.
But after I've done the crying? Well, externals are back, but still on the "subtle side". But there is definitely a change.
On Monday I was barely outside, but the few girls I saw definitely were interested. Still very subtle, I wouldn't notice it at all unless I was looking for sudden changes in behavior.
Today I went kayaking, the sun was out giving energy to DMSI and again every girl I saw was looking at me. Had strangers starting conversations as well. One dog went crazy about me. That was before running today's loop.
I was only able to get 1 loop in today. But when I arrived at the train going into the city I see a girl walking out of the station. She looks straight at me and looks confused, she goes back into the station and up the stairs. She has a beautiful ass. She goes through the gates, and now she walks back. Back outside the gates!?
This girl literally went back the same damn way she came from, upstairs through the gates. And then goes all the way outside again. All this for giving me a view of her ass? Well, I certainly ain't complaining.
Other than that there is not really anything worth noticing. Eye contact, hair flips etc. etc. but that's no fun.
This is day 58 of A, I've done 2 days of B. I know I'm not done with A. But from tomorrow I'll be going to B. I want more results, not necessarily from girls but life-changing events. Financially, logistically, social settings and that. Right now I think my biggest problem is not being around girls that I actually want, and I want DMSI to change that together with other things in life. Or I'm simply convincing myself to escape away.
I will be returning to A eventually, unless DMSI makes me achieve my personal goals, as of which I would no longer need DMSI for that moment and in that case would jump on MLS. Possibly something else depending on which time-range we're at then
