Shannon's Journal

[Shannon]

Sad to say, I am still getting sicker, and therefore, there will be no festivities for me this night. Which really frustrates me, as this opportunity comes just once a year. Sometimes when I get sick at suspiciously specific times that prevent me from doing something I have planned to do, I wonder if maybe there is not some sort of directing intelligence behind it, preventing me from doing certain things that I want to do for a reason. Maybe to keep me from screwing something important in my future up inadvertently? I have had colds and flus very rarely, and it does seem that most of the time I get sick, in any form - cold, flu, pneumonia, cancer, etc. - has specifically prevented something I wanted to do, and then quickly faded away. Who knows. But it does make me wonder.

I am unable to do much of anything at this point. Even research is out. I can't focus enough. Which means I am limited at this point to simply eating and sleeping. All the time. Very boring. And since this damned thing is only getting worse, it's not like my usual colds and flus, which hit like a hurricane and then disappear just as fast. Thankfully, I usually only get sick once every other year. I guess I am due. Maybe I'll just keep taking benadryl until I sleep this damned thing off. So frustrating.