04-16-2017, 05:55 PM
Day 13 on B
Day 12 ended up being emotionally turbulent because of certain events that evening which I'll talk about later - when I have more time to update the journal.
However, I have just realised that I have developed something in last couple of years - which is - I do not deal with uncertainty very well. I need a black and white yes or a no. This started during my SM3 run less than two years ago.
So, if a girl gives me either a yes or no; I'm fine with it. If she leaves it in the middle - e.g. maybe, we'll see how it goes or just doesn't communicate things clearly etc. it makes me very uncomfortable.
I wonder what the reason behind this is and what I can do about it.
Day 12 ended up being emotionally turbulent because of certain events that evening which I'll talk about later - when I have more time to update the journal.
However, I have just realised that I have developed something in last couple of years - which is - I do not deal with uncertainty very well. I need a black and white yes or a no. This started during my SM3 run less than two years ago.
So, if a girl gives me either a yes or no; I'm fine with it. If she leaves it in the middle - e.g. maybe, we'll see how it goes or just doesn't communicate things clearly etc. it makes me very uncomfortable.
I wonder what the reason behind this is and what I can do about it.
