Nothing makes any sense to me, like the bits are not fitting together. It's like i don't hold the glue that are needed to make existence comprehensive. Things come in and out of my awareness, and when they don't, there is simply just time flowing, and bits and pieces of information flowing, but not coming through.
The contours are inseparable, trying to find answers for questions relating to my own state just give more questions. My thoughts are deep but I can't get them to surface, as I can't put them into their own perspective, I'm still down inside of them, and to me it makes sense, but taking a step back it's just nonsense without any context.
It feels like I am "to smart for myself", always dabbling with thoughts, looking for patterns and finding a deeper meaning has colored my way of thinking and being, but as the mental capacity is no longer there, the search for deeper mening only confuses me and make me feel like I am grasping for straws where there are none, and in turn questioning my own sanity.
There must be an end to this, I know there is, but the only thing I can to is trust, keep on and having faith in it, even though I cannot summon faith I have to trust it's concept.
The contours are inseparable, trying to find answers for questions relating to my own state just give more questions. My thoughts are deep but I can't get them to surface, as I can't put them into their own perspective, I'm still down inside of them, and to me it makes sense, but taking a step back it's just nonsense without any context.
It feels like I am "to smart for myself", always dabbling with thoughts, looking for patterns and finding a deeper meaning has colored my way of thinking and being, but as the mental capacity is no longer there, the search for deeper mening only confuses me and make me feel like I am grasping for straws where there are none, and in turn questioning my own sanity.
There must be an end to this, I know there is, but the only thing I can to is trust, keep on and having faith in it, even though I cannot summon faith I have to trust it's concept.
