Going Super Sexy Saiyan (DMSI 3.1A)

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I really just don't know what to do right now. I'm sick of feeling the way I do, I'm sick of being what I am. I just want to feel better and live the life I'd like to, that's all. But right now I don't feel like going to class. I hate it. I don't feel like socializing with people most of the time. I feel so distant from everyone but I don't feel like socializing. I'm just sick of the way things are. I know that as I am now, I won't be that successful in the entertainment industry. And I enjoy doing what I do. But right now I just hate people. I just saw one of cory's videos about viewing women as people, as human beings. I don't even understand what the fuck it means to be a human being. I don't know what it means to "treat someone like a human being". I definitely wouldn't say that girls treated me like a person. My emotions and how I felt were never considered. They didn't think how their actions would impact me. So why the fuck should I care how it impacts them outside of how others would perceive me?

The best relationship I ever had was with my dog and best friend. But now he's gone and I won't ever see him again. I find it so fucking sad that an animal can communicate with me better than fucking people. Of course, he was intelligent, but come on he couldn't even speak english. Like what the fuck. It's things like this that make me lose hope in humanity. I know that people must form bonds and connections just to survive, let alone thrive. That's especially important in the industry I'm going into. I just feel like I'm fucked every way. I feel like either I'm gonna change or be faced with a terrible, unhappy existence.