Guns of steel and sex appeal- DMSI 3.1 A

[Broski]

DMSI A Day 37

Went out last night and ran into a girl ive previously talked about in my journal(we made out before but I was never able to seal the deal) She came up and immediately hugged me when she saw me. My buddy and I sat down and talked with her and her friend for a bit. She seemed really receptive and was laughing at everything I was saying. When me and my buddy got up to leave she gave me the hug of the century(almost cracked my spine, chicks **** strong) I then got a text from her saying "I love you man." "Seriously though, youre good people. So nice to see you" with a big smiley at the end. So felt pretty solid on that front

This anxiety type stuff though is still killin me. I feel like at a point in my life about 6 years ago where I had a lot of anxiety about a certain issue for like a 8 month stretch then it kind of went away. It seems like it has come back in full force. Hoping it all gets cleared out and dealt with soon

You seem to be clearing out that anxiety filled event. To elaborate - you are reliving it again, in order to clear it. The subconscious is in all times - past, present, future - or rather, it doesn't have time. That event has happened, is happening right now, and will happen for the subconscious, and it is using this process to help you clear it out.

That is the most likely theory, since you said it feels similar. But there might be another reason - that the subconscious is anxious because it knows it will have to execute the script.

Of course, there is the possibility it's both leepy:

Good going with dem chicks.

Im hoping its the program trying to clear the issue cause I would love for it to be nixed. Im just afraid its me myself bringing back the issue to try to sabotage any possible success and that im just going to continue having this issue

The issue itself may seem like a pretty dumb one to other people but it definitely has an effect on me. Basically when I learned about different things in psychology I became afraid of the power of the mind. Afraid that id use it against myself. Kinda like how people that think theyre sick when in reality theyre not but can actually start feeling sick. Id be afraid of that kind of stuff. Like afraid of focusing on negative feelings and bad thoughts and bringing that stuff into my life. So that would cause me anxiety, then id get anxiety about having the anxiety and think that axiety will further create negative things and more anxiety in my life. Throw some frustration into the mix as well. Its a very stupid yet vicious cycle lol. Im just hoping dmsi can help me get past it once and for all

And thanks man, im tryin. I feel like if I can get past a few of these mental hurdles holding me back the sky is the limit girls wise