Due to time constraints, I only was able to do 3 contiguous loos today and I just did the fourth loop. After my classes today, I felt calm, almost in a state of power. It's been a pretty damn long time since I felt that even a little.
I've been doing cold showers for the past 3 days. Apparently, it legit has effects on the brain to correct depression symptoms. I don't usually feel "amazing" like so many others say when I get out, but I am committed to doing this. It's a bit easier to do it soon after a workout.
I really wondered if TM was going to help me or help me get where I intend to be. And I do believe so. Steady progress. I can say this because even though it was faint, I haven't felt any sense of power in my life since I've been on subs yet I felt it today. Today is/was good.
I complimented my professor today. Her hair was awesome so I told her I liked it today. I don't know what came over me, but I was just insanely turned on and really wanted to let me hand run through her hair and makeout with her. I was surprised to feel that there in class. In response to my compliment, she said that she usually doesn't do anything to it but she did today and she said thank you. I don't think this really means anything though as she is married and one time when I walked with her to her office, she didn't seem to particularly want to engage me. But it was a different experience for me today.
I'm seeing slow yet steady progress in the gym. Just need to keep my nutrition clean.
I'm considering running DMSI at regular sub times tomorrow to see what happens. Why not? It's the only day that I'd be willing to risk anything because I at least have Sunday to deal with major effects. So I'm considering that. In the past, I usually increased my sub hours on weekends since I had extra time and I'd usually feel a very slight "level up" by Monday, but then go through the ringer by the time the following weekend arrived, so it never felt like the "level up" was permanent. It just meant I started the week off better than the average weekday would go for me.
And if you were wondering, no noticeable celebrity effects or effects with girls yet.
P.S. I'm not spending that much time on the forums atm, so I'm very rarely reading anyone's journals. Usually it's just Shannon's. Just a PSA.
I've been doing cold showers for the past 3 days. Apparently, it legit has effects on the brain to correct depression symptoms. I don't usually feel "amazing" like so many others say when I get out, but I am committed to doing this. It's a bit easier to do it soon after a workout.
I really wondered if TM was going to help me or help me get where I intend to be. And I do believe so. Steady progress. I can say this because even though it was faint, I haven't felt any sense of power in my life since I've been on subs yet I felt it today. Today is/was good.
I complimented my professor today. Her hair was awesome so I told her I liked it today. I don't know what came over me, but I was just insanely turned on and really wanted to let me hand run through her hair and makeout with her. I was surprised to feel that there in class. In response to my compliment, she said that she usually doesn't do anything to it but she did today and she said thank you. I don't think this really means anything though as she is married and one time when I walked with her to her office, she didn't seem to particularly want to engage me. But it was a different experience for me today.
I'm seeing slow yet steady progress in the gym. Just need to keep my nutrition clean.
I'm considering running DMSI at regular sub times tomorrow to see what happens. Why not? It's the only day that I'd be willing to risk anything because I at least have Sunday to deal with major effects. So I'm considering that. In the past, I usually increased my sub hours on weekends since I had extra time and I'd usually feel a very slight "level up" by Monday, but then go through the ringer by the time the following weekend arrived, so it never felt like the "level up" was permanent. It just meant I started the week off better than the average weekday would go for me.
And if you were wondering, no noticeable celebrity effects or effects with girls yet.
P.S. I'm not spending that much time on the forums atm, so I'm very rarely reading anyone's journals. Usually it's just Shannon's. Just a PSA.
