04-05-2017, 01:14 AM
DAY 33
The weird, empty feeling I felt when writing that post carried on into the evening. I had an argument with my girlfriend when she came back to mine about her clothing. She has a few dresses that are extremely short, so if she bends over slightly, stretches upwards or leans forwards to reach something pretty much everything is on display. I told her I don't mind short dresses/skirts but nobody should ever be able to see her panties but me. She got defensive and upset about it, she said it's because she's tall and sometimes the dresses don't fit properly. I argued if you know they don't fit properly then why do you wear them? She said why do you care, no one else has me but you. I said because if men see girls who are wearing clothes so short their underwear is often on display, they assume they are open to being hit on. She said so it's a pride thing for you? I got angry then and said something like "to be honest, I can't fucking believe you can't understand why I don't want my girlfriends vagina to be on display in public" and she got angry back and said "why don't you find another fucking girlfriend" and turned away from me to sleep.
We had some angry silence. I was sat on the end of the bed and I just kind of froze up. I felt so bad internally. Eventually we hugged and made up but I still feel she didn't agree with what I said.
I told her I said what I needed to say and if she things I'm wrong then to disregard it, as I won't ever mention it again.
I just felt so awful all day. Exhausted too. I think there's some really strong healing/clearing taking place.
The weird, empty feeling I felt when writing that post carried on into the evening. I had an argument with my girlfriend when she came back to mine about her clothing. She has a few dresses that are extremely short, so if she bends over slightly, stretches upwards or leans forwards to reach something pretty much everything is on display. I told her I don't mind short dresses/skirts but nobody should ever be able to see her panties but me. She got defensive and upset about it, she said it's because she's tall and sometimes the dresses don't fit properly. I argued if you know they don't fit properly then why do you wear them? She said why do you care, no one else has me but you. I said because if men see girls who are wearing clothes so short their underwear is often on display, they assume they are open to being hit on. She said so it's a pride thing for you? I got angry then and said something like "to be honest, I can't fucking believe you can't understand why I don't want my girlfriends vagina to be on display in public" and she got angry back and said "why don't you find another fucking girlfriend" and turned away from me to sleep.
We had some angry silence. I was sat on the end of the bed and I just kind of froze up. I felt so bad internally. Eventually we hugged and made up but I still feel she didn't agree with what I said.
I told her I said what I needed to say and if she things I'm wrong then to disregard it, as I won't ever mention it again.
I just felt so awful all day. Exhausted too. I think there's some really strong healing/clearing taking place.
