A while ago I started using AM 6.0 program and ran into some problems. I am trying to figure out what caused the problems for me, and why not other people have experienced the problems. I'll try to do some discussion of it in this post. All comments/thoughts on the subject are of interest.
Background:
I started doing AM really because I wanted to have a girl "secure" because of me obsessing over her (clearly I wasn't in a good place to start with). At the time I was deep into spirituality, meditation and smoking weed, no bad words to that, but at the time this wasn't what I needed.
The reason for the behavior, I latter have understood, was seeking comfort from emotional pain which I wasn't able to meet at the moment. With all facts on hand, I should have taken professional help to deal with it, at the moment I was in no state to take that on by myself.
Anyhow, I went with the AM even though everything in me told me to stop. Really, everything. I though of it as resistance, and just shut it out. Note here that I was clearly damaged, and shouldn't have done any subliminal program at all at the moment, but just rest and be around my family and friends.
But I pushed on, in some kind of delirious state that "soon the resistance will let go and I will become an true Alpha Male and everything will be fine". Hell no, things became worse. I lost track of time, went into some kind of place where my mind was in total panic for very long periods of time. I started to shut down, my body didn't as normal anymore. I lost contact with my emotions, I was a walking train wreckage, confused and drained of all energy. The whole period stretched for about 1,5 years, which is a very long time in this kind of state.
Today
It have been a long way back to "normal", just getting back in shape after such self-torture that I put myself through. I am amazed by my own effort to get back to where I am today, especially as I for a while totally lost sense of "self", literally. In spiritual terms I had a full-chakra-shut-off. I was closer to not being alive than being alive.
Chakras have been a way for me to understand what happened, and how to get back to normal. One of the chakras is called "crown" chakra which is providing energy to the mind and overall nervous system in the body. Today, in my work with bringing myself back to health, the crown is one of the chakras currently targeted.
The closing of the crown chakra was horrible for me at the moment, as the mind was the only this I "had", emotionals, physical strenght, everything else was shut down. When the crown shut down, I truly lost my mind for a while and never thought I would be the same again.
Reading online I found a "cause" for crown-chakra blockage being:
CAUSES
You'll have experienced or will be experiencing some of the following; Withheld information, education that suppressed curiosity, forced religiosity, invalidation of one's beliefs, blind obedience (no right to question or think for oneself), misinformation, lies and spiritual abuse.
Which is what I believed I put myself through by blasting the subliminal at the rate I did, forcing myself to listen as it was "the only way out".
I lost contact with my own wisdom, and blindly started to trusting another belief system which made my whole individual run havoc.
And on a more grounded note: I was stressed as hell and an emotional wreck at the time. As I understand AM can be pretty stressful, and at the time I was 1) emotionally unstable and stressed as is and 2) didn't think straight.
Background:
I started doing AM really because I wanted to have a girl "secure" because of me obsessing over her (clearly I wasn't in a good place to start with). At the time I was deep into spirituality, meditation and smoking weed, no bad words to that, but at the time this wasn't what I needed.
The reason for the behavior, I latter have understood, was seeking comfort from emotional pain which I wasn't able to meet at the moment. With all facts on hand, I should have taken professional help to deal with it, at the moment I was in no state to take that on by myself.
Anyhow, I went with the AM even though everything in me told me to stop. Really, everything. I though of it as resistance, and just shut it out. Note here that I was clearly damaged, and shouldn't have done any subliminal program at all at the moment, but just rest and be around my family and friends.
But I pushed on, in some kind of delirious state that "soon the resistance will let go and I will become an true Alpha Male and everything will be fine". Hell no, things became worse. I lost track of time, went into some kind of place where my mind was in total panic for very long periods of time. I started to shut down, my body didn't as normal anymore. I lost contact with my emotions, I was a walking train wreckage, confused and drained of all energy. The whole period stretched for about 1,5 years, which is a very long time in this kind of state.
Today
It have been a long way back to "normal", just getting back in shape after such self-torture that I put myself through. I am amazed by my own effort to get back to where I am today, especially as I for a while totally lost sense of "self", literally. In spiritual terms I had a full-chakra-shut-off. I was closer to not being alive than being alive.
Chakras have been a way for me to understand what happened, and how to get back to normal. One of the chakras is called "crown" chakra which is providing energy to the mind and overall nervous system in the body. Today, in my work with bringing myself back to health, the crown is one of the chakras currently targeted.
The closing of the crown chakra was horrible for me at the moment, as the mind was the only this I "had", emotionals, physical strenght, everything else was shut down. When the crown shut down, I truly lost my mind for a while and never thought I would be the same again.
Reading online I found a "cause" for crown-chakra blockage being:
CAUSES
You'll have experienced or will be experiencing some of the following; Withheld information, education that suppressed curiosity, forced religiosity, invalidation of one's beliefs, blind obedience (no right to question or think for oneself), misinformation, lies and spiritual abuse.
Which is what I believed I put myself through by blasting the subliminal at the rate I did, forcing myself to listen as it was "the only way out".
I lost contact with my own wisdom, and blindly started to trusting another belief system which made my whole individual run havoc.
And on a more grounded note: I was stressed as hell and an emotional wreck at the time. As I understand AM can be pretty stressful, and at the time I was 1) emotionally unstable and stressed as is and 2) didn't think straight.
