DMSI v3.1: User Acceptance Testing

[eternity]

Day 32
So I listened to 32nd set of loops for DMSI v3.1a this morning. Current state: feeling sad and low. Lack of enthusiasm and motivation to do anything. I also sense a feeling of being alone.

I was reading some dmsi journals on Sunday and realised that some people have had great success with dmsi. I have had insignificant results in comparison.

It is possible that I may require healing, I may be resisting, or simply put dmsi is not working for me or maybe something else is the matter. On dmsi it looks like all girls who show interest in me back off after the initial interest. This is so bizarre that it makes me feel like my results before any sub were much better than this.

On the other hand, I could attribute it to dmsi as well: a change in mindset means I'm not chasing after girls who do not make enough efforts to move things forward and it could very well be the anti sniper. Or maybe dmsi may have made subtle changes and my thoughts about girls may have changed or are changing.

All in all, as they say, proof is in the pudding. I think I'll give 'B' side a go for maybe a week or two. If it works, great... otherwise I'll go back to sorting my life out instead of chasing skirts.

I have seen tiny glimpses of the impact of subs. So I do feel that subs do work. If not anything else they at least make a particular area your focus. The side effect of that could be that the other areas in your life which may require attention, take a back seat.

I'm happy to hear from Shannon or anyone with any insights on my run. Please feel free to ask any questions for clarification.

The feelings of doubting the sub are all too familiar to me, and I've seen it as a common theme around the boards and others using dimsee.

It's particularly evident in my mind as of the last two days. I think it's just internal noise. I acknowledge these thoughts, then laugh because there's no logical reason for ME to doubt that there's something being done.

We ARE going against the tides in flipping the paradigm to women seducing men. To go from our existing lifeline to the desired one, we need a lot of reality shifting. And the process of shifting lifelines has been a bit turbulent in my experience.

So, acknowledge the doubt but rest assured that despite 3.1 being the beast it is, we still have more versions for us awaiting. Which will get us to the design goal

It's not a matter of if... just when.