04-03-2017, 11:48 AM
(This post was last modified: 04-03-2017, 11:51 AM by JackOfHearts.)
Day 38:
I'm not sure if it's MLS but recently I have noticed my emotions have changed, I feel more natural. For example I went to a nightclub recently and I was looking at girls like they were normal human been, it's like finally I understand that they are not just sex object and we can connect with them too.
What's worse is that a lot of women reacted differently, the more emotionally healthy reacted better. While the nut cases "bitchy" one stayed the same. So the level of attraction got better recently though it's not the crazy stare from DMSI.
With all that I realized a lot of stuff I have been doing is off completely, a worthless ego game.
If I compare what some journals have in here on ego I don't even want to read the forums. I will stay on the forums but I think it's first time I'm considering how unhealthy some of the journals on here are. I'm not throwing stone here as I did that too to some extent. But I may not participate as much as I use to.
It might also be a small transition and in 2 weeks I will forget about it.
I'm not sure if it's MLS but recently I have noticed my emotions have changed, I feel more natural. For example I went to a nightclub recently and I was looking at girls like they were normal human been, it's like finally I understand that they are not just sex object and we can connect with them too.
What's worse is that a lot of women reacted differently, the more emotionally healthy reacted better. While the nut cases "bitchy" one stayed the same. So the level of attraction got better recently though it's not the crazy stare from DMSI.
With all that I realized a lot of stuff I have been doing is off completely, a worthless ego game.
If I compare what some journals have in here on ego I don't even want to read the forums. I will stay on the forums but I think it's first time I'm considering how unhealthy some of the journals on here are. I'm not throwing stone here as I did that too to some extent. But I may not participate as much as I use to.
It might also be a small transition and in 2 weeks I will forget about it.
