EHPRA 6.0 - Make Your Life Better

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3. Get rid of addictions- (Addictions such as porn and drugs have an emotional component to them and used as escapes to handle the pain in your mind. This slows down the recovery process, my suggestion is to get rid of it and face it head on)

I wished to put something in on addictions. I've looked like I'm not an addict since I "don't drink or drug". I'm in recovery for emotional trauma, and something I've found is ANYTHING can be used as a emotional fix. For example, about 10 years ago I was into vegetable juicing heavily. I felt good, and I had social support. No issues there, right?

However, I started a weekly 12 step study, I began feeling a lot of fear, and I distinctly feeling like a drug addict needing to get home and "get my fix", which was vegetable juicing. I've done too much coffee, food, hiding on forums, reading.....ANYTHING which would help me avoid my inner pain.

My last 12 step sponsor is in Narcotics Anonymous. I go to AA meetings a few times a month. I find addiction just has different faces. Some are clean and shiny, and some scream and fight to be noticed.

I am not sure how an overall addiction package could be found. But.....the issue is "what am I running away from?"

For me, I'm finding I run from myself. Abandoning me (my own thoughts and feelings) is a battle I feel and face every day.

I say this knowing I'm heading out to a 12 step meeting soon. Knowing I'm not alone helps me cope tremendously.