I feel like I completely lost it and have f*cked my mind good. This sub feels more demanding then AM did. Its crazy. Its like a mixture of violent rage episodes mixed with sadness, longing and at times hopelessness. Not to say some weird mental stuff surfaces that makes me question my sanity and filters of my mind. The highs are awesome and mindblowing, but the lows are killing me. Tired as f*ck at the moment and loss of interest in journalling increases. Also some weird shit about self fulfilling prophecies.
As quick as this came up, it went. Needed changes although I feel still very much sad, in a way im confident as fuck. Like my sexual potential is growing with not giving much shits about it, each time growing and glowing and nearing the goals of the sub at all times and costs. I am sexual desired. Feeling it and naturally feeling it like smoothening out. There is this nagging knowing anger is vital in this. Like its setting me up for different range of emotions and spiking. The anger isnt there for nothing probably.
Im out of giving a crap of anything yet this attitude shift centres me. I am the alpha, i am the sigma, i am the prize. Im like a magnet and geavitayion pull. I now see the potential increasing. Its almost tyler durden on steroids yet so calm and grounded its absurd and yet very badboy-ish stylish. Like knowing whatsup, owning it and flowing without having filters and the such. The outcast even yet all is certain in attraction. This gonna be so good and so easy to spike attraction. Getting to the point my mere presence make the world slip in wet pusdy everywhere. I love being my cocky self and there is so much to do, be and see. Im feeling pretty much open to ecperiment. Something high value men know when they know their SMV. its a sexual baseline in confidence and am among the stars and supernovas.
Jewelry, piercings interest becomes back aswell as tattoo's. The sub is full on change for me now. Being bland feels kinda mundane and crazy experiences are my field, like kinky shit indulging, almost goth like bordering sm shit. The sex is and will be wild, I shed lots of layers and inhibitations.
Oh well. Enough writing about all of this..letting it happen.
As quick as this came up, it went. Needed changes although I feel still very much sad, in a way im confident as fuck. Like my sexual potential is growing with not giving much shits about it, each time growing and glowing and nearing the goals of the sub at all times and costs. I am sexual desired. Feeling it and naturally feeling it like smoothening out. There is this nagging knowing anger is vital in this. Like its setting me up for different range of emotions and spiking. The anger isnt there for nothing probably.
Im out of giving a crap of anything yet this attitude shift centres me. I am the alpha, i am the sigma, i am the prize. Im like a magnet and geavitayion pull. I now see the potential increasing. Its almost tyler durden on steroids yet so calm and grounded its absurd and yet very badboy-ish stylish. Like knowing whatsup, owning it and flowing without having filters and the such. The outcast even yet all is certain in attraction. This gonna be so good and so easy to spike attraction. Getting to the point my mere presence make the world slip in wet pusdy everywhere. I love being my cocky self and there is so much to do, be and see. Im feeling pretty much open to ecperiment. Something high value men know when they know their SMV. its a sexual baseline in confidence and am among the stars and supernovas.
Jewelry, piercings interest becomes back aswell as tattoo's. The sub is full on change for me now. Being bland feels kinda mundane and crazy experiences are my field, like kinky shit indulging, almost goth like bordering sm shit. The sex is and will be wild, I shed lots of layers and inhibitations.
Oh well. Enough writing about all of this..letting it happen.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
