A negative person in my life is making me feel like shit. Not like being aweful and telling bad things, but it's just some really negative energy that I take up being around this person. It is awful, as I care for the person, and know that she is a good person inside, but I just feel like shit and become an asshole around her. She is just so damn negative and have a victim mindset, talking badly about other people and really crave attention. I have tried as best as I can to create a relationship with her, but she just project awful negative energy towards me when done (probably subconsciously) and she would flip if I would ever mention something like that (empirically tested)
In my normal state, I can handle this. I can start a discussion with her on some subject, as she has a gift in discussing different topics and are intelligent, or when feeling good I can even share some of my energy with her (bad idea probably as it may be this that have started the habit that I am a "energy source"). But now, I just don't have the energy or mental "capacity" to do it.
Plus side: Went in the forests for a walk today and I could really be present in nature.
In my normal state, I can handle this. I can start a discussion with her on some subject, as she has a gift in discussing different topics and are intelligent, or when feeling good I can even share some of my energy with her (bad idea probably as it may be this that have started the habit that I am a "energy source"). But now, I just don't have the energy or mental "capacity" to do it.
Plus side: Went in the forests for a walk today and I could really be present in nature.
