03-31-2017, 07:47 PM
Day 29
So, looks like I may have made some progress on the healing front. I feel like my attitude and mindset are changing. Now when someone says they're not interested in me or anything like that - I'm okay with this.
At the risk of invoking the anti-zen brigade, I'd also like to add that it feels a bit zen like - on the lines of me being at ease and being comfortable respecting someone else's choices without taking it personally and getting offended. Whatever their decision is based on is their concern, not mine. I don't have the energy to try to convert them. It just means this person and I are just not ready for each other.
I'm not sure if I'm explaining it correctly, but compared to what I went through in my head when one of the Tinder girls cancelled our date and told me she's decided to enter a relationship with someone else - that did hurt and I felt sad for a few days after that. Mainly because she and I seemed extremely compatible. I don't think I've come across anyone this compatible in more than a decade or more.
Compared to that, this new feeling feels awesome. I like at peace and more relaxed.
Well, three more days to go before I decide whether to switch to side B or continue with side A or switch to another sub like BASE or MHS.
Enjoy your weekend everyone.
So, looks like I may have made some progress on the healing front. I feel like my attitude and mindset are changing. Now when someone says they're not interested in me or anything like that - I'm okay with this.
At the risk of invoking the anti-zen brigade, I'd also like to add that it feels a bit zen like - on the lines of me being at ease and being comfortable respecting someone else's choices without taking it personally and getting offended. Whatever their decision is based on is their concern, not mine. I don't have the energy to try to convert them. It just means this person and I are just not ready for each other.
I'm not sure if I'm explaining it correctly, but compared to what I went through in my head when one of the Tinder girls cancelled our date and told me she's decided to enter a relationship with someone else - that did hurt and I felt sad for a few days after that. Mainly because she and I seemed extremely compatible. I don't think I've come across anyone this compatible in more than a decade or more.
Compared to that, this new feeling feels awesome. I like at peace and more relaxed.
Well, three more days to go before I decide whether to switch to side B or continue with side A or switch to another sub like BASE or MHS.
Enjoy your weekend everyone.
