Thinking about commanding presence, hand of g*d stuff. also, to much consideration of her frame. just went back from my girl, and yes I say, my girl as it is, nothing is sidetracking me, no blow out exist. just spike her, be this guy. Its like I only hear blablabla, and it doesnt register, only my frame exists in this, which is a huge realisation for me. When I kissed her at the trainstation, I noticed I was not commanding enough, not leading enough for some reason, yet at the same time, im feeling very rampant in this, like, there is nothing that went wrong, which means solidifying. Oblivion is right at times in that.
No impression and validation seeking. starting to realize masculine intent about this, shes female, Im male and thats about it. no shame in my owning of myself, my interests and hobbies.
I now recognize that at the station when kissing her an she went in, I was to much leaning at times to go for the kiss, it just looked pretty lower value in that. she didnt hold eye contact which could be her insecurity, even if the kiss went well. I expect eye contact. Being centred and grounded. there could be ASd and LMR going on, which I suspect myself, just plow through, just flip the script, flip it over. when being asked if being nervoue ( which I wasnt, I want higher energy and feeling lethargic for some reason, to much zen and present/aloof (?)) which was interpretated or shittested, IDK. Amplify and ridicule "Im fucking nervous"with being playfull and smirk on my face. there is no blow out at all, even if it was an ridiculous chase. At the start I had some thoughts going on like "Im to available, to chasing"only to flip it to laughign about it.
story telling is next what I want. the not existing of her really sticks right now, barrage and trance her out. lol
Also, micro-subcommunication. Dont get in your head. Micro communication like laughing when the purse holding shit comes up. Be amused and dont give into that shit. Struck like lightning as to why in the past this stuff happened. Weak frame. Frame theory falls away.
No impression and validation seeking. starting to realize masculine intent about this, shes female, Im male and thats about it. no shame in my owning of myself, my interests and hobbies.
I now recognize that at the station when kissing her an she went in, I was to much leaning at times to go for the kiss, it just looked pretty lower value in that. she didnt hold eye contact which could be her insecurity, even if the kiss went well. I expect eye contact. Being centred and grounded. there could be ASd and LMR going on, which I suspect myself, just plow through, just flip the script, flip it over. when being asked if being nervoue ( which I wasnt, I want higher energy and feeling lethargic for some reason, to much zen and present/aloof (?)) which was interpretated or shittested, IDK. Amplify and ridicule "Im fucking nervous"with being playfull and smirk on my face. there is no blow out at all, even if it was an ridiculous chase. At the start I had some thoughts going on like "Im to available, to chasing"only to flip it to laughign about it.
story telling is next what I want. the not existing of her really sticks right now, barrage and trance her out. lol
Also, micro-subcommunication. Dont get in your head. Micro communication like laughing when the purse holding shit comes up. Be amused and dont give into that shit. Struck like lightning as to why in the past this stuff happened. Weak frame. Frame theory falls away.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
