Today has been an interesting day, not really external wise. But rather internally, consciously. I've also gotten external results, an increase of quality as well. But now in comparison to yesterday, there weren't so many girls to snipe on.
I suppose I indeed do feel the volume optimizing, but that I still play around with the volume too much. Been swapping around on it today a little and I think I found the perfect volume, or I'm 1 click away.
I remembered the feeling of being idiotically happy. It hit me today during the day as well, I realize this must be the euphoria.
I have had A LOT of sensation in the stomach area today. It started last night when I ate more than I usually do, and I, for a VERY long time actually was "satisfied" with what I'd been eating. Like my hunger had been sated. I was not hungry at all. And this feeling lasted longer than 5 minutes.
I've had this pressure in my stomach, it's not hurting, nor is it about being hungry. It's a feeling that I usually connect to the sniper. But I've had no one to snipe (not regarding LDS/SDS sniper) when I had these feelings.
I went into the city, and the first thing I get is a butt presentation. Not a good looking one, but nonetheless.
I went to the first venue and I felt off, no euphoric feeling. I was a bit of a downer. When I arrived I realized that none of the friends I usually hang out with there wasn't there. Leaving me with people I barely know, or the people that I know that are busy. So I tried getting to know people. I have never had problems with this and people generally love me because I tend to bring up the room's positivity to a whole new level. Not today.
Not sure if it's due to DMSI bringing out the insecurities in these people, which they project onto me. Or if it was due to me "feeling off" there. But I've never had so bad results when trying to be social as I had here.
The only person that I enjoyed an interaction with there was the guy from the last week. Which is a successful entrepreneur and therefore could be concluded as "high value" and therefore likely also has fewer insecurities to project. I'm sad that so many people have these insecurities for whatever reasons.
I went to the next venue and on my way there I listened to some "pumping music" in order to get me into a better state. I guess it worked because when I arrived I felt better and instantly had a good time with the friends who were there. The first thing I hear is "ReeZoX! I'm good again!" from a girl who broke her collarbone a few weeks ago, a bit unusual for this girl to give that "reaction"/behavior but DMSI "helped" with that "result"
Got multiple butt presentations here, definitely better looking than the first one I received today.
A lot of girls generally were interested in me today. Not unusual in this venue due to social proof, but I still feel DMSI might have some doings in this.
Should mention that I felt nothing of the "bad interactions" thing here, with people that I know better if anything it seems to make them appreciate me more. A lot of flirting today.
Now I said I felt some internal things. Well, the "biggest one" I supposed came yesterday. I bought myself a journal and started writing down my thoughts. My thoughts about pretty much everything - just to get it out of my head and onto paper. I've started doing things more. Instead of the "I'll do it later" I've been actually starting things. Not necessarily doing them at the pace I want, but I have been starting them. This didn't happen at all earlier on any version of DMSI as I rather played Witcher 3 then.
I had an incident on the way home, that gave me emotions of disgust and compassion. I won't go into it in detail, as I don't wanna give out any personal information. But shortly there was a "male" that acted in a way that's not ok. Not ok in any way, and I just feel sorry for him being so out of touch with his masculinity and with himself, in general, to even go down to the level he was at. It gave me such strong emotions of disgust towards him, and males in general who are scared to act out on what they are. And this also caused some disgust to the whole male-shaming culture I feel that we're in right now.
I'm so happy I discovered personal development when I did.
Also did another internal choice/experience that I won't write out, but that makes a Big change for me.
I suppose I indeed do feel the volume optimizing, but that I still play around with the volume too much. Been swapping around on it today a little and I think I found the perfect volume, or I'm 1 click away.
I remembered the feeling of being idiotically happy. It hit me today during the day as well, I realize this must be the euphoria.
I have had A LOT of sensation in the stomach area today. It started last night when I ate more than I usually do, and I, for a VERY long time actually was "satisfied" with what I'd been eating. Like my hunger had been sated. I was not hungry at all. And this feeling lasted longer than 5 minutes.
I've had this pressure in my stomach, it's not hurting, nor is it about being hungry. It's a feeling that I usually connect to the sniper. But I've had no one to snipe (not regarding LDS/SDS sniper) when I had these feelings.
I went into the city, and the first thing I get is a butt presentation. Not a good looking one, but nonetheless.
I went to the first venue and I felt off, no euphoric feeling. I was a bit of a downer. When I arrived I realized that none of the friends I usually hang out with there wasn't there. Leaving me with people I barely know, or the people that I know that are busy. So I tried getting to know people. I have never had problems with this and people generally love me because I tend to bring up the room's positivity to a whole new level. Not today.
Not sure if it's due to DMSI bringing out the insecurities in these people, which they project onto me. Or if it was due to me "feeling off" there. But I've never had so bad results when trying to be social as I had here.
The only person that I enjoyed an interaction with there was the guy from the last week. Which is a successful entrepreneur and therefore could be concluded as "high value" and therefore likely also has fewer insecurities to project. I'm sad that so many people have these insecurities for whatever reasons.
I went to the next venue and on my way there I listened to some "pumping music" in order to get me into a better state. I guess it worked because when I arrived I felt better and instantly had a good time with the friends who were there. The first thing I hear is "ReeZoX! I'm good again!" from a girl who broke her collarbone a few weeks ago, a bit unusual for this girl to give that "reaction"/behavior but DMSI "helped" with that "result"
Got multiple butt presentations here, definitely better looking than the first one I received today.
A lot of girls generally were interested in me today. Not unusual in this venue due to social proof, but I still feel DMSI might have some doings in this.
Should mention that I felt nothing of the "bad interactions" thing here, with people that I know better if anything it seems to make them appreciate me more. A lot of flirting today.
Now I said I felt some internal things. Well, the "biggest one" I supposed came yesterday. I bought myself a journal and started writing down my thoughts. My thoughts about pretty much everything - just to get it out of my head and onto paper. I've started doing things more. Instead of the "I'll do it later" I've been actually starting things. Not necessarily doing them at the pace I want, but I have been starting them. This didn't happen at all earlier on any version of DMSI as I rather played Witcher 3 then.
I had an incident on the way home, that gave me emotions of disgust and compassion. I won't go into it in detail, as I don't wanna give out any personal information. But shortly there was a "male" that acted in a way that's not ok. Not ok in any way, and I just feel sorry for him being so out of touch with his masculinity and with himself, in general, to even go down to the level he was at. It gave me such strong emotions of disgust towards him, and males in general who are scared to act out on what they are. And this also caused some disgust to the whole male-shaming culture I feel that we're in right now.
I'm so happy I discovered personal development when I did.
Also did another internal choice/experience that I won't write out, but that makes a Big change for me.
