03-19-2017, 06:47 PM
Well my break was alright while it lasted. I was actually starting to feel good. It was nice to just relax. I planned on training, but that went out the window. I hadn't had time to mentally take a break in a really long time. And even then I had a major paper for a class to do. I picked out some nice shoes, should be here this week (Adidas Ultraboost 3.0!) I never thought I'd get a pair of Adidas, always been a Nike person in terms of looks, but I never heard of the Ultraboost or experienced its amazing comfort until last week. HAD to get a pair.
But today once I got back in my college town, my good feelings started to leave me. I saw a girl that now ignores me at the grocery store. That bugged me. And now I'm back on campus. I don't like the fact that I'm gonna have to come across attractive girls. I don't like that I gotta go to class tomorrow, if only to turn in the paper that hindered my break. I only started to feel this way once I got back in my college city. Everything up until then was looking up (in my eyes) because of the different emotional responses that aren't usual for me while on a sub. For example, I'd usually have noticeable anxiety while on a healing sub after I've stayed in for a few days and go out around a lot of people. That wasn't the case this time. Back in my hometown, I had at worst minor anxiety, like very minor, like just a bit more than I'd have while off subs. It's very unusual. I thought the healing might be almost done for this thing.
Right now, I feel like Shannon needs to make the ASS stronger and the ART better.
In other news, I'm really planning on buying Julien's Transformation Mastery. He's offering 1 on 1 coaching with the program and that's exactly what I believe I need. I can either get a PS4 Pro (which I really want) or get Julien's program for the coaching (which should lead to me changing my life) so I'm going with Julien's program. Might be a little while till I go for it though.
At this point, I'm seriously ready for a life change.
But today once I got back in my college town, my good feelings started to leave me. I saw a girl that now ignores me at the grocery store. That bugged me. And now I'm back on campus. I don't like the fact that I'm gonna have to come across attractive girls. I don't like that I gotta go to class tomorrow, if only to turn in the paper that hindered my break. I only started to feel this way once I got back in my college city. Everything up until then was looking up (in my eyes) because of the different emotional responses that aren't usual for me while on a sub. For example, I'd usually have noticeable anxiety while on a healing sub after I've stayed in for a few days and go out around a lot of people. That wasn't the case this time. Back in my hometown, I had at worst minor anxiety, like very minor, like just a bit more than I'd have while off subs. It's very unusual. I thought the healing might be almost done for this thing.
Right now, I feel like Shannon needs to make the ASS stronger and the ART better.
In other news, I'm really planning on buying Julien's Transformation Mastery. He's offering 1 on 1 coaching with the program and that's exactly what I believe I need. I can either get a PS4 Pro (which I really want) or get Julien's program for the coaching (which should lead to me changing my life) so I'm going with Julien's program. Might be a little while till I go for it though.
At this point, I'm seriously ready for a life change.