I went back on Hybrid on Wednesday, like I said I would.
A headache came instantly 5 min into my first loop, and continued throughout the day but was gone by Thursday, I started feeling more intense hunger and heat. Not constantly more heated but mostly after eating. Could also be that I don't feel increases of heat, as I simply have grown accustomed to my increased body temperature and don't feel that I am hotter, body wise.
On Thursday I experienced more heat and hunger and had a very high difficulty of falling asleep during the night, causing me to get a low amount of sleep this night into Friday.
Hunger today (Friday), but no heat. I'm wondering if it could be due to me not getting a good night's sleep, only sleeping 5 hours, and then another 2 hours during the day. That my body or subC doesn't get enough rest and that somehow limits the possibility of DMSI to "work 100%" I had one instance today where I got results coming from the aura, where I'm on the subway and 3 girls come and decide to sit down within sight of me. One of these girls start eyeing me, she's not that hot. Not my type at all, consciously at least. But she starts to get some lip gloss or something, just starts putting it on her lips, her body towards me while looking me in the eyes. This was no coincidence. This was 5 seconds of intense staring of a girl doing something that looks very obviously like a sexual invitation. I go off at the next station.
Nothing else "major" to report, I'm not really surprised but at the same time disappointed. Met the girl from last week (hot, but could have a better body) and as I'm certain I will see more of her, I feel no need to "rush things" as at this point it almost feels inevitable we will interact at some point, the more time that nothing happens but I keep tension, gives me more possibility to get social proof, and show myself as a more interesting guy and basically make her wanting to approach me. Never had problems with that before but maybe I should try to be bold?
Eye contact and looks thrown at me again, nothing else that I noticed, but hard to see the body language when there are 50 people between you...
Went to another place where most of my friends hang out so I go into a social/fun mode. This makes me completely oblivious to IoI's unless it's very obvious ones. Nothing to report, can't say I noticed anything at all except hunger causing me to spend money I usually wouldn't spend. Just me being a goofy, sexual, gregarious guy that I was before DMSI as well.
I'm wondering if I do get results and DMSI is doing its thing but I simply don't hang around the "right" girls, am missing signs of interest that aren't very obvious due to me simply having too much fun or that DMSI only work on some instances, such as the girl on the subway. It's hard to say since I haven't been out AT ALL this week, haven't felt for it. Like my last post I did definitely get results last week on Sunday, but for what reasons? Cause I was on the masked version instead of the hybrid, that I was in a different environment with more girls, more girls I find attractive and girls I usually don't hang out with?
Next week I'll go out more, if not to see what DMSI does, just to get a nice walk in the city. I do need to get out of the house more, just not sure what I wanna do. Oh, I did meet a guy today. Started talking and we spent 30 minutes talking about our lives, really great interaction and he gave me some thing's to think about. As I had a dream of school some week ago, and this guy was talking and suggesting I go back to school, I'm wondering if DMSI is trying to guide me back into school, simply to put me in a place of where I meet more girls. "Sad" thing is that if I were to go back to school I would get MLS, and simply get done with school as fast as possible.
I'm a bit torn between places, what to do and simply "lost" in life. Nothing caused by DMSI, at least that's what I would say but I can't really disregard it now can I. But I would hope that DMSI can help me get things figured out in the best way possible. Not just sexually, but financially and long-term all-in-all for me as well.
Like I said I haven't been out, felt like DMSI was working on something (internally) when I was on the Masked version, but that doesn't make sense as it would continue to work with the same thing if I switched to Hybrid. No dreams, no "mood-swings". Nothing at all since Hybrid except the hunger/heat. Would at least be nice to know if I'm still getting healing/clearing and that DMSI is trying to overcome the resisting/stonewalling part of me or what is actually going on. The thing that's the most difference for me is that I have started gaming again. The bad type of gaming meaning sitting in front of the computer for hours... Gonna delete the game (again).
Reading RTBoss's latest post in his journal, I'm wondering if I should simply let all these thoughts go and "go with the flow" and let DMSI do its thing. But then how would I know DMSI is actually working? Haha, annoying things.
I have a will to go out tomorrow, to make something happen. But knowing me I'll wake up late, and not have any motivation to do anything "since it's late" and simply do nothing on Saturday.
I also feel I like this journaling thing, it's a first for me but I might start a personal one, not limited to DMSI but just to get the things out of my head, letting me relax and simply enjoy what's going on at the moment. Need to look up a good journal program, or a book that's small and good enough to follow with me anywhere.
Edit: Something I've noticed is that pretty much always when I seemingly get any kind of external results, I have VERY easy to get a boner. Easy to notice the aura kicking in this way at least.
A headache came instantly 5 min into my first loop, and continued throughout the day but was gone by Thursday, I started feeling more intense hunger and heat. Not constantly more heated but mostly after eating. Could also be that I don't feel increases of heat, as I simply have grown accustomed to my increased body temperature and don't feel that I am hotter, body wise.
On Thursday I experienced more heat and hunger and had a very high difficulty of falling asleep during the night, causing me to get a low amount of sleep this night into Friday.
Hunger today (Friday), but no heat. I'm wondering if it could be due to me not getting a good night's sleep, only sleeping 5 hours, and then another 2 hours during the day. That my body or subC doesn't get enough rest and that somehow limits the possibility of DMSI to "work 100%" I had one instance today where I got results coming from the aura, where I'm on the subway and 3 girls come and decide to sit down within sight of me. One of these girls start eyeing me, she's not that hot. Not my type at all, consciously at least. But she starts to get some lip gloss or something, just starts putting it on her lips, her body towards me while looking me in the eyes. This was no coincidence. This was 5 seconds of intense staring of a girl doing something that looks very obviously like a sexual invitation. I go off at the next station.
Nothing else "major" to report, I'm not really surprised but at the same time disappointed. Met the girl from last week (hot, but could have a better body) and as I'm certain I will see more of her, I feel no need to "rush things" as at this point it almost feels inevitable we will interact at some point, the more time that nothing happens but I keep tension, gives me more possibility to get social proof, and show myself as a more interesting guy and basically make her wanting to approach me. Never had problems with that before but maybe I should try to be bold?
Eye contact and looks thrown at me again, nothing else that I noticed, but hard to see the body language when there are 50 people between you...
Went to another place where most of my friends hang out so I go into a social/fun mode. This makes me completely oblivious to IoI's unless it's very obvious ones. Nothing to report, can't say I noticed anything at all except hunger causing me to spend money I usually wouldn't spend. Just me being a goofy, sexual, gregarious guy that I was before DMSI as well.
I'm wondering if I do get results and DMSI is doing its thing but I simply don't hang around the "right" girls, am missing signs of interest that aren't very obvious due to me simply having too much fun or that DMSI only work on some instances, such as the girl on the subway. It's hard to say since I haven't been out AT ALL this week, haven't felt for it. Like my last post I did definitely get results last week on Sunday, but for what reasons? Cause I was on the masked version instead of the hybrid, that I was in a different environment with more girls, more girls I find attractive and girls I usually don't hang out with?
Next week I'll go out more, if not to see what DMSI does, just to get a nice walk in the city. I do need to get out of the house more, just not sure what I wanna do. Oh, I did meet a guy today. Started talking and we spent 30 minutes talking about our lives, really great interaction and he gave me some thing's to think about. As I had a dream of school some week ago, and this guy was talking and suggesting I go back to school, I'm wondering if DMSI is trying to guide me back into school, simply to put me in a place of where I meet more girls. "Sad" thing is that if I were to go back to school I would get MLS, and simply get done with school as fast as possible.
I'm a bit torn between places, what to do and simply "lost" in life. Nothing caused by DMSI, at least that's what I would say but I can't really disregard it now can I. But I would hope that DMSI can help me get things figured out in the best way possible. Not just sexually, but financially and long-term all-in-all for me as well.
Like I said I haven't been out, felt like DMSI was working on something (internally) when I was on the Masked version, but that doesn't make sense as it would continue to work with the same thing if I switched to Hybrid. No dreams, no "mood-swings". Nothing at all since Hybrid except the hunger/heat. Would at least be nice to know if I'm still getting healing/clearing and that DMSI is trying to overcome the resisting/stonewalling part of me or what is actually going on. The thing that's the most difference for me is that I have started gaming again. The bad type of gaming meaning sitting in front of the computer for hours... Gonna delete the game (again).
Reading RTBoss's latest post in his journal, I'm wondering if I should simply let all these thoughts go and "go with the flow" and let DMSI do its thing. But then how would I know DMSI is actually working? Haha, annoying things.
I have a will to go out tomorrow, to make something happen. But knowing me I'll wake up late, and not have any motivation to do anything "since it's late" and simply do nothing on Saturday.
I also feel I like this journaling thing, it's a first for me but I might start a personal one, not limited to DMSI but just to get the things out of my head, letting me relax and simply enjoy what's going on at the moment. Need to look up a good journal program, or a book that's small and good enough to follow with me anywhere.
Edit: Something I've noticed is that pretty much always when I seemingly get any kind of external results, I have VERY easy to get a boner. Easy to notice the aura kicking in this way at least.
