Today counts 365 days since i started E2, and I have made a huge progress in this year. Stopped with E2 about 2 months ago, and not sure, but I think I can still "hear" the script playing in form of tinnitus that "pauses" in the same way as the "overload" function or what it is called in the subliminal.
Physically and spiritually I am a lot more back in the game. I can do push-ups, go out for jogs so that is really great! I feel better inside, I'm no longer depressed "by default", but more neutral. My body is stronger and I made progress with the wim-hof method. The "emotional-stamina" is limited, but I think that it is improving. So that is the good part, which is fenomenal just in itself. I can feel joy, watch a movie and enjoy it, laugh at a joke, listen to music and enjoy it, yeah you get it - this part is awesome!
Mentally, i'm not back fully. I'm not really "there". It's like my brain have been put on 10 % of it's capacity. I have problems finding words, "understanding" what is happening (like a conversation) - this result in that I can take things personally, that probably aren't directed that way. I have a hard time "rationalizing" things and well you know, just use my head and think. So this part sucks, but I think that it is slowly becoming better. Physically it have recently manifested numb feeling in the top, back, and back inside of my head, compared to the feeling you get when you sit on your leg for a while and it falls "asleep." During this year I have experienced this "numbness"-feeling in different parts of my body, and by focusing on that part and just being patient, it has gradually disappeared. Probably will be the same for this part, but I am intrigued to see what the reason is behind the numbness and know what is happening.
So now I'm trying to reinforce positive emotions, regular exercise, good and varied diet with home cooked food and good sleep (which when I now mention it has become much better in the past couple of weeks), and do my best to work with getting back with myself mentally.
Physically and spiritually I am a lot more back in the game. I can do push-ups, go out for jogs so that is really great! I feel better inside, I'm no longer depressed "by default", but more neutral. My body is stronger and I made progress with the wim-hof method. The "emotional-stamina" is limited, but I think that it is improving. So that is the good part, which is fenomenal just in itself. I can feel joy, watch a movie and enjoy it, laugh at a joke, listen to music and enjoy it, yeah you get it - this part is awesome!
Mentally, i'm not back fully. I'm not really "there". It's like my brain have been put on 10 % of it's capacity. I have problems finding words, "understanding" what is happening (like a conversation) - this result in that I can take things personally, that probably aren't directed that way. I have a hard time "rationalizing" things and well you know, just use my head and think. So this part sucks, but I think that it is slowly becoming better. Physically it have recently manifested numb feeling in the top, back, and back inside of my head, compared to the feeling you get when you sit on your leg for a while and it falls "asleep." During this year I have experienced this "numbness"-feeling in different parts of my body, and by focusing on that part and just being patient, it has gradually disappeared. Probably will be the same for this part, but I am intrigued to see what the reason is behind the numbness and know what is happening.
So now I'm trying to reinforce positive emotions, regular exercise, good and varied diet with home cooked food and good sleep (which when I now mention it has become much better in the past couple of weeks), and do my best to work with getting back with myself mentally.
