The heat has stopped coming, at least not in the same way it used to before. Could also be about me not actually having a fever anymore lol
I seemingly always have the "best results" (externally) during early days of a sub. Before my subconscious realizes it's "supposed to resist" or heal.
Anyways the 2 latest days I've been happy. Like really fking happy. I have been one of those guys that are so happy you wanna punch them in the face so you can't see their smile. And I have felt absolutely amazing about it
Starting the days dancing around the kitchen while coughing and listening to music
On day 2-3 of the sub, I had some tears coming while sitting at the computer. Not the emotional one's where you need to "get it all out". But the tears that are grieving something. Not really sure what I need healing/clearing off. Can't really say that I've had any deep stuff hitting me in my childhood, that I consciously remember at least.
My school years was a bit different, but that's also where I've already managed to heal a lot of wounds by changing perspectives
I've generally felt more energized on 3.1 even while sick I only needed about 6 hours of sleep, since I know it's healthy to sleep while sick I've actively tried sleeping. But it's also felt like I've been able to stay awake for those 6 hours.
But tonight I slept for 10 hours and I'm not sick anymore, at least not as severe.
Had a dream a few nights ago that I went back to school (I'm a high-school dropout). This specific school is in my old city, but one of my new friends went to the school, for some reason. Met with my teacher and we played dice while looking at a specific textbook. All my old classmates and friends were looking at movies lol.
One of the reasons I went back to this school was because it basically enables you to study from a distance. Which would fit with my current goals of traveling the world while being an entrepreneur. While I went to this school it was also VERY easy. I skipped 75% of the classes but still had good grades.
Going to an "easy" school for distance studying, while traveling the world and running a company? Yes, something I'd not have anything in mind against.
Also had another dream tonight, which I can't remember anything off now, at least. But I remember waking up thinking it was a bit cool lol.
I went out yesterday, didn't really notice anything special. Some looks from girls, and I saw one girl of specific interest. Her face wasn't really that good. But she had my perfect type of body and fashion. There's this specific type of fashion in girls that I absolutely adore, and sadly so few girls have this style. I think I've met 5 girls in total that I could put in this category, and every girl with the style have caught my interest. While not being physically attracted to them by their facial features. This style of clothes conveys their personality (which I can conclude is attractive. Since they are wearing these clothes) and I always end up getting/having an interest in them.
I might guess this girl I saw was sniped a little. That she barely fit the sniper "standards" and was affected, but not completely. But other than that specific girl, nothing extraordinary from the girl side.
Guys, however? Looks everywhere. Most of them just "wondering". Not alien stares, but rather "who is this guy?" and sometimes a form of jealousy. None tried interacting with me. So can't say I cared that much. I just enjoyed being a happy idiot not being able to stop smiling.
About a week ago I contacted a guy, for mentorship. He's a successful multi-entrepreneur and mentioned on Instagram he was opening a mentorship group.
I contacted him and the mentioned the price causing me to back out. But I responded to his last message in a "specific" way. Not something that most people would do. They'd just go back to their life.
I read this guy's book in preparation of contacting him. I like knowing what I deal with, and this is the type of guy I wanna have as a mentor. So in my last message, I wrote of a commonality I have with him, knowing it would've caught his interest while still thanking him for his time and hoping we'd meet each other in the future anyways.
Today I got his response. I got a 75% discount and will be joining the mentorship group that will be ongoing for 3 months.
Can't say this was caused by DMSI, but neither can I disregard it. Stoked as fk eitherway though
I seemingly always have the "best results" (externally) during early days of a sub. Before my subconscious realizes it's "supposed to resist" or heal.
Anyways the 2 latest days I've been happy. Like really fking happy. I have been one of those guys that are so happy you wanna punch them in the face so you can't see their smile. And I have felt absolutely amazing about it
Starting the days dancing around the kitchen while coughing and listening to music
On day 2-3 of the sub, I had some tears coming while sitting at the computer. Not the emotional one's where you need to "get it all out". But the tears that are grieving something. Not really sure what I need healing/clearing off. Can't really say that I've had any deep stuff hitting me in my childhood, that I consciously remember at least.
My school years was a bit different, but that's also where I've already managed to heal a lot of wounds by changing perspectives
I've generally felt more energized on 3.1 even while sick I only needed about 6 hours of sleep, since I know it's healthy to sleep while sick I've actively tried sleeping. But it's also felt like I've been able to stay awake for those 6 hours.
But tonight I slept for 10 hours and I'm not sick anymore, at least not as severe.
Had a dream a few nights ago that I went back to school (I'm a high-school dropout). This specific school is in my old city, but one of my new friends went to the school, for some reason. Met with my teacher and we played dice while looking at a specific textbook. All my old classmates and friends were looking at movies lol.
One of the reasons I went back to this school was because it basically enables you to study from a distance. Which would fit with my current goals of traveling the world while being an entrepreneur. While I went to this school it was also VERY easy. I skipped 75% of the classes but still had good grades.
Going to an "easy" school for distance studying, while traveling the world and running a company? Yes, something I'd not have anything in mind against.
Also had another dream tonight, which I can't remember anything off now, at least. But I remember waking up thinking it was a bit cool lol.
I went out yesterday, didn't really notice anything special. Some looks from girls, and I saw one girl of specific interest. Her face wasn't really that good. But she had my perfect type of body and fashion. There's this specific type of fashion in girls that I absolutely adore, and sadly so few girls have this style. I think I've met 5 girls in total that I could put in this category, and every girl with the style have caught my interest. While not being physically attracted to them by their facial features. This style of clothes conveys their personality (which I can conclude is attractive. Since they are wearing these clothes) and I always end up getting/having an interest in them.
I might guess this girl I saw was sniped a little. That she barely fit the sniper "standards" and was affected, but not completely. But other than that specific girl, nothing extraordinary from the girl side.
Guys, however? Looks everywhere. Most of them just "wondering". Not alien stares, but rather "who is this guy?" and sometimes a form of jealousy. None tried interacting with me. So can't say I cared that much. I just enjoyed being a happy idiot not being able to stop smiling.
About a week ago I contacted a guy, for mentorship. He's a successful multi-entrepreneur and mentioned on Instagram he was opening a mentorship group.
I contacted him and the mentioned the price causing me to back out. But I responded to his last message in a "specific" way. Not something that most people would do. They'd just go back to their life.
I read this guy's book in preparation of contacting him. I like knowing what I deal with, and this is the type of guy I wanna have as a mentor. So in my last message, I wrote of a commonality I have with him, knowing it would've caught his interest while still thanking him for his time and hoping we'd meet each other in the future anyways.
Today I got his response. I got a 75% discount and will be joining the mentorship group that will be ongoing for 3 months.
Can't say this was caused by DMSI, but neither can I disregard it. Stoked as fk eitherway though
