03-04-2017, 03:56 AM
3.01 Day 30-40
After I've finished listening to version B after writing the above post, I realized that I indeed do need more clearing. My first thought regarding version B was that I never felt the anger and therefore didn't need healing?
Well, I eventually realized later on that I didn't seemingly experience the anger, because I ain't in touch with my feelings and I've "learned" to suppress my anger in order to get better response's from other people when they get me angry.
Therefore I can't say whether or not I experienced anger. My guess would be that while on B I was suppressing my anger as a sort of "learned behavior" in order to get a better response from other people. But that doesn't mean my feelings/emotions aren't there.
With my personality type (ENTJ, enneagram Type 5) along with some other "diagnoses", those types are all generally known to be way out of touch with their feelings, but when they do "feel them". They're intense.
So I instantly went back to A. On last Saturday I went to another country to go skiing, which resulted in bad sleep, and having to listen to DMSI during the night whole week. On Tuesday I switched to B, as that has a lot of less "playtime" and I was hoping I would get some more time to rest/sleep.
Can't really say I noticed anything special these latest days, other than the auto-pilot seems to do its part. Was way more physical and touchy with girls than I usually am, grabbing their asses and such. But other than that and the "usual" IoI's nothing happened.
Been chatting/texting girls more overall, one girl said to me she wants to invite me home to her so "she can make me food". Achieving goal seems to come closer.
Been also remembering some memories, from when I was younger with people/classmates saying bad stuff about me. Most of them being related to something physical about me "You're so thin, you're so short, you look bad in glasses".
So I am concluding that DMSI definitely is clearing/healing stuff.
3.1A Day 1
Finished the first loops yesterday. And had gotten home the night before.
Like Chaos said in his journal I've had a headache that felt like something was "clenching" over my head, from a little above my ears to around the neck.
Should be noted that I only took a 30-hour break between 3.01 and 3.1
I went to bed after my loops and slept for another 2 hours. I am uncertain of the tiredness being caused by DMSI or just the body's response from being sick or 5 hours of sleep the last week, not including the 2½ hours that I listened to DMSI during the nights.
No dreams occurred for me, I've only experienced 5 dreams total while on DMSI.
Anyways I seem to be experiencing heat. I never felt any heat while on 3.01 but now on 3.1 it's affecting me
Been getting bursts of heat and an overall increase of heat. Which I see as something positive.
Last night I got a lot of IoI's. Butt presentations and a lot of "weird" behavior from girls in general. I can already now say that I like 3.1
Have no real clue on who my LDS target is, I mean there are definitely many girls who are candidates. But my guess is some girls living in "my old" city, which I've moved from since a year back. Else I would guess it's just someone "random" I can barely remember from my current city. Can't really say I've met my personal 10. Physical attractiveness I've met multiple 9s
But with personality and physical attractiveness, the highest I can think of is 8. And that is more than just 1 girl, so I suppose that 1 of those would get sniped. Sad thing I don't know whom.
I woke up quite early, being thirsty as hell so I went drinking water and then back to sleep.
When I woke up "for real", I felt different. I could see clearly? "HOLY SHIT DMSI HAS FIXED MY EYE PROBLEMS?"
Later I realized I had just forgotten to remove my contact lenses before I went to bed last night
But my skin seems to be different, it's more soft and looking way clearer. Almost glowing
Listening to my second run on 3.1 right now and I feel energized, but at the same time, I am tired. I am having a real trouble knowing if my tiredness is due to being sick or DMSI.
Another thing is that another user mentioned having Deja-Vu feelings?
I've been experiencing Deja-Vu feelings the last 2 years, where I've dreamt of thing's and they later occur IRL. Creepy as shit but now I'm pretty much used to it. I've started writing down my dreams so I can 100% say things are happening that I'm dreaming about. But it seems like I easily forget to write things down as well.
After I've finished listening to version B after writing the above post, I realized that I indeed do need more clearing. My first thought regarding version B was that I never felt the anger and therefore didn't need healing?
Well, I eventually realized later on that I didn't seemingly experience the anger, because I ain't in touch with my feelings and I've "learned" to suppress my anger in order to get better response's from other people when they get me angry.
Therefore I can't say whether or not I experienced anger. My guess would be that while on B I was suppressing my anger as a sort of "learned behavior" in order to get a better response from other people. But that doesn't mean my feelings/emotions aren't there.
With my personality type (ENTJ, enneagram Type 5) along with some other "diagnoses", those types are all generally known to be way out of touch with their feelings, but when they do "feel them". They're intense.
So I instantly went back to A. On last Saturday I went to another country to go skiing, which resulted in bad sleep, and having to listen to DMSI during the night whole week. On Tuesday I switched to B, as that has a lot of less "playtime" and I was hoping I would get some more time to rest/sleep.
Can't really say I noticed anything special these latest days, other than the auto-pilot seems to do its part. Was way more physical and touchy with girls than I usually am, grabbing their asses and such. But other than that and the "usual" IoI's nothing happened.
Been chatting/texting girls more overall, one girl said to me she wants to invite me home to her so "she can make me food". Achieving goal seems to come closer.
Been also remembering some memories, from when I was younger with people/classmates saying bad stuff about me. Most of them being related to something physical about me "You're so thin, you're so short, you look bad in glasses".
So I am concluding that DMSI definitely is clearing/healing stuff.
3.1A Day 1
Finished the first loops yesterday. And had gotten home the night before.
Like Chaos said in his journal I've had a headache that felt like something was "clenching" over my head, from a little above my ears to around the neck.
Should be noted that I only took a 30-hour break between 3.01 and 3.1
I went to bed after my loops and slept for another 2 hours. I am uncertain of the tiredness being caused by DMSI or just the body's response from being sick or 5 hours of sleep the last week, not including the 2½ hours that I listened to DMSI during the nights.
No dreams occurred for me, I've only experienced 5 dreams total while on DMSI.
Anyways I seem to be experiencing heat. I never felt any heat while on 3.01 but now on 3.1 it's affecting me
Been getting bursts of heat and an overall increase of heat. Which I see as something positive.
Last night I got a lot of IoI's. Butt presentations and a lot of "weird" behavior from girls in general. I can already now say that I like 3.1
Have no real clue on who my LDS target is, I mean there are definitely many girls who are candidates. But my guess is some girls living in "my old" city, which I've moved from since a year back. Else I would guess it's just someone "random" I can barely remember from my current city. Can't really say I've met my personal 10. Physical attractiveness I've met multiple 9s
But with personality and physical attractiveness, the highest I can think of is 8. And that is more than just 1 girl, so I suppose that 1 of those would get sniped. Sad thing I don't know whom.
I woke up quite early, being thirsty as hell so I went drinking water and then back to sleep.
When I woke up "for real", I felt different. I could see clearly? "HOLY SHIT DMSI HAS FIXED MY EYE PROBLEMS?"
Later I realized I had just forgotten to remove my contact lenses before I went to bed last night
But my skin seems to be different, it's more soft and looking way clearer. Almost glowing
Listening to my second run on 3.1 right now and I feel energized, but at the same time, I am tired. I am having a real trouble knowing if my tiredness is due to being sick or DMSI.
Another thing is that another user mentioned having Deja-Vu feelings?
I've been experiencing Deja-Vu feelings the last 2 years, where I've dreamt of thing's and they later occur IRL. Creepy as shit but now I'm pretty much used to it. I've started writing down my dreams so I can 100% say things are happening that I'm dreaming about. But it seems like I easily forget to write things down as well.
