02-25-2017, 08:35 PM
I don't really know how to describe how I'm feeling right now. I'm definitely not in a flowstate. Today it was like others wanted to socialize just like the past few days, but today it was hard for me to. Emotionally, I just felt like I didn't belong. I don't know how else to put it. Even when it was a good time to suggest that we all exchange numbers if we want to hang out some time, I didn't. I think I might have been scared, which is very very odd.
Weird emotional things today. I just don't feel like I belong even though others are treating me like I do. I think it's mainly not feeling any level of flowstate. When I feel that, I'm pretty much good regardless. If I ever feel it again to the extent I felt it before I started subs, that'd be awesome. I literally felt unstoppable.
Thoughts
I'm glad Shannon is better and I'm glad that he's enjoying working on DMSI again. I'm still waiting for physical changes to be added as a goal. I'll probably ask him in the next day or so.
I want to feel better
Weird emotional things today. I just don't feel like I belong even though others are treating me like I do. I think it's mainly not feeling any level of flowstate. When I feel that, I'm pretty much good regardless. If I ever feel it again to the extent I felt it before I started subs, that'd be awesome. I literally felt unstoppable.
Thoughts
I'm glad Shannon is better and I'm glad that he's enjoying working on DMSI again. I'm still waiting for physical changes to be added as a goal. I'll probably ask him in the next day or so.
I want to feel better
