A Sexy Alex, stage 1: BIABWS+DAOS Journal

[apollolux]

The feeling of fatigue seems to have increased since last month; I find it difficult to physically move from bed when I wake up in the morning until 30-60 minutes after and am disappointed I would have to plan accordingly. I also find it difficult to fall asleep in under 30 minutes when going to bed at night, possibly related to drinking coffee by itself since I finished off my protein powder and can't yet afford another jar to mix with the coffee. I'm of the mind turbulence in my mind as a result of the way I've recently chosen to ingest subs for science plays a large part in this and hope that this is reduced significantly or eliminated once I return to a normal listening schedule.

Libido still feels really low and at the moment I'm not sure one way or the other if it's because of the aforementioned sub turbulence, prescription medications, recent diet changes, or a combination of the above. The desire to use pheromones has also lessened, for better or worse.

Event-wise, there was a fire in my building a couple of weeks ago and it hasn't been fully repaired yet. I don't yet have any idea how much that has to do with my personal development. I also received an email that was disheartening and I don't know if it would be better to share its info to more people than I already have (only one or two at this writing) or keep it to myself until I handle the matter.

Anyways, going to suspend this journal in favor of a DMSI-specific one, as my personal experiment has reached its end and I shall return to a normal listening schedule.