11-21-2011, 03:24 AM
Stage 1 changes-I'll try to be kind of emotionally and results specific
1. Feel much more in tune with woman-like the kind of guy who just relates with them and talks to them where ever
2. Stronger sexual tension everywhere I go
3. Much more driven from within myself-WAY more than even on alpha
4. Feeling totally afloat or a drift yet extremely certain
5. Approach and talk to woman more when I feel like it-I can say the stupidest or most mundane shit like I'm shooting the sh--z with someone I'm barely paying attention to and it 'lands', as in great reactions-smiles sexual eye contact, like a cannon going off.
6. In the last 3 weeks my friends are always commenting on how I have crazy 'game' and every time they look away some girl and I are all up on each-other-while this is very true-its still not leading anywhere with consistency-and while that rep from my friends and the respect with it is nice-and very masculinity empowering within my 'tribe' -I've only had sex 2 times so far in stage 1 and would rather more of that than a 'rep'
7. Self image and Self Esteem are WAY higher, than they every were on Alpha even, my sense of self worth is much greater and at the same time I feel less concerned with self image-more humble
8. More 'alpha' in that I stick by my mood, I don't placate, I'm slower in movement and responses and way crazy and faster when I feel like it.
8. Way less neediness-excluding the rough days
9. My focus is very present-on how I feel and what I am doing-its easier to pull myself out of ruts and/or depressions and everything feels very driven yet carefree-even though I don't always feel very 'happy' I feel much more carefree while not being apathetic
10. My presence is huge now-I almost try to reel it in sometimes when I don't want attention or feel a tension in certain scenarios
11. Much more comfortable with myself and in my skin
12. Sex drive is way higher-and that is with smoking cigarettes and drinking when I'm out partying-which brings me to my next point
13. Strong drive to just have fun and be wild and reckless-double edge sword-I'm approaching way more woman and trying new things but-this month I think I drank and smoked more than I have since college-possibly more-and I wake up feeling fantastic...which is almost worse lol
14. Of course everything in my life seems to be pushing/urging me to become someone very new.
15. Most obviously-my body language feels like I'm some jungle cat-there is a new swag in my walk-
All in all I'm generally very impressed with stage one-the beginning was rough at times and I had one experience of jealousy+ disappointment that felt like it castrated me, which was the worse and it took about 32 hours to get over to a point where it felt like that issue wont exist inside me anymore.
While I like just playing the sub and getting on with my life this next month I plan to be very conscious and proactive with really filling out my life with activities and things I enjoy that have nothing to do with woman and/or 'drugs'-as well as being very conscious and proactive about bringing more woman into my life. While I have the night scene fairly well down-there is definitely way more progress to be had there- and I'm looking to start up some online dating and start taking classes with things I'm interested in where they will be awesome woman. As of now my motivation feels very balanced between independent self and really getting into some amazing experiences with woman.
1. Feel much more in tune with woman-like the kind of guy who just relates with them and talks to them where ever
2. Stronger sexual tension everywhere I go
3. Much more driven from within myself-WAY more than even on alpha
4. Feeling totally afloat or a drift yet extremely certain
5. Approach and talk to woman more when I feel like it-I can say the stupidest or most mundane shit like I'm shooting the sh--z with someone I'm barely paying attention to and it 'lands', as in great reactions-smiles sexual eye contact, like a cannon going off.
6. In the last 3 weeks my friends are always commenting on how I have crazy 'game' and every time they look away some girl and I are all up on each-other-while this is very true-its still not leading anywhere with consistency-and while that rep from my friends and the respect with it is nice-and very masculinity empowering within my 'tribe' -I've only had sex 2 times so far in stage 1 and would rather more of that than a 'rep'
7. Self image and Self Esteem are WAY higher, than they every were on Alpha even, my sense of self worth is much greater and at the same time I feel less concerned with self image-more humble
8. More 'alpha' in that I stick by my mood, I don't placate, I'm slower in movement and responses and way crazy and faster when I feel like it.
8. Way less neediness-excluding the rough days
9. My focus is very present-on how I feel and what I am doing-its easier to pull myself out of ruts and/or depressions and everything feels very driven yet carefree-even though I don't always feel very 'happy' I feel much more carefree while not being apathetic
10. My presence is huge now-I almost try to reel it in sometimes when I don't want attention or feel a tension in certain scenarios
11. Much more comfortable with myself and in my skin
12. Sex drive is way higher-and that is with smoking cigarettes and drinking when I'm out partying-which brings me to my next point
13. Strong drive to just have fun and be wild and reckless-double edge sword-I'm approaching way more woman and trying new things but-this month I think I drank and smoked more than I have since college-possibly more-and I wake up feeling fantastic...which is almost worse lol
14. Of course everything in my life seems to be pushing/urging me to become someone very new.
15. Most obviously-my body language feels like I'm some jungle cat-there is a new swag in my walk-
All in all I'm generally very impressed with stage one-the beginning was rough at times and I had one experience of jealousy+ disappointment that felt like it castrated me, which was the worse and it took about 32 hours to get over to a point where it felt like that issue wont exist inside me anymore.
While I like just playing the sub and getting on with my life this next month I plan to be very conscious and proactive with really filling out my life with activities and things I enjoy that have nothing to do with woman and/or 'drugs'-as well as being very conscious and proactive about bringing more woman into my life. While I have the night scene fairly well down-there is definitely way more progress to be had there- and I'm looking to start up some online dating and start taking classes with things I'm interested in where they will be awesome woman. As of now my motivation feels very balanced between independent self and really getting into some amazing experiences with woman.
1. There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
