11-14-2011, 12:12 AM
(11-12-2011, 01:26 PM)Ryan Wrote: You know in the beginning of SM I felt like I was unable to ever get a woman again or have a girlfriend. I felt like I was always going to loose them. As time went on with Sex Magnet, I began to feel like I'll never need one. You'll get there.
Also, having that happen to me in the beginning of Sex Magnet really helped me see things clearly as I went through the set. Think of it happening for a reason that beneficial to your grow.
Ryan
that is not how I feel at all-I meant it as a reference to the fact that in my past my pattern was that I slept with woman a couple times and then we became friends or I lost touch with the them-mostly out of my volition. The last few woman I have been with I have been progressively more and more intimate and I feel the possibilities stronger than ever now-caring more and more has been very important to me-some peoples pendulum care to much-some to little and I was swinging on the d---khead side of the fence-if anything I say the greatest fault of subs so far for me is the dissonance between what I expect and the results or reactions I get in real time-there is always a period during subs-for me-where my mind and body are like "yeh I got this I'm the s---t" and then circumstances, or people lol, blow up in my face-lessons in arrogance perhaps
1. There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
