Journey to Being AwEsOmE

[dbzjakecake]

Again just meh. Woke up early in the morning feeling really anxious. Always thinking about life. Thoughts of how I have failed and suicidal thoughts keep running through my mind all day. This don't effect me. They are just always around. Come and go. I have no motivation to do anything. Like I'm hungry right now but I'm too lazy to go up and make something to eat. I am glued to my laptop and just scroll through random sites here.
I'm jealous of people who are happy and enjoying their lives. I wish I could be like that.