11-08-2011, 03:14 PM
Stage 4 - Day 15,
I've noticed my whole approach on things have changed. I'm less social and I have very little, if any motivation to start talking to people or to keep a conversation going. I sense a little strange feeling with this.
I'm in my own zone and I'll just do some of the things that pops up in my head - most of the things is just involving me and I'll do them spontaneously but not remember them very well.
People I talk to will tell me with uncertainty that they see me like a thoughtful, grounded and centered person and I'll have some fun with that.. but yeah.. obviously I am projecting some kind of centeredness and I've always have after have practicing martial arts for several years but it's like in this period of stage 4, it makes it even more serious as I'm talking about in this post...
Haven't experienced fear and nervousness for quite a while.
I see the people like.. I don't feel like desiring to intrude and not very curious, unless it's a woman I have had a connection with but I also don't care what they think of me. It's quite sad actually when I look at it out of the box because it's not dynamic as human nature but rather rigid and deviant/deprecating
Maybe I need to push myself more to the limits? Maybe my standards of my old self have raised and I have to be more creative and think and take action in to the direction I want to go?
My mindset is more like.. abundant and things will just happen to me but I haven't seen any proof, though it doesn't make me stop the habits I have to create the reality I visualize.. I'm just questioning some things...
It's actually having a little difficulty to remember how my old self was..
I've noticed my whole approach on things have changed. I'm less social and I have very little, if any motivation to start talking to people or to keep a conversation going. I sense a little strange feeling with this.
I'm in my own zone and I'll just do some of the things that pops up in my head - most of the things is just involving me and I'll do them spontaneously but not remember them very well.
People I talk to will tell me with uncertainty that they see me like a thoughtful, grounded and centered person and I'll have some fun with that.. but yeah.. obviously I am projecting some kind of centeredness and I've always have after have practicing martial arts for several years but it's like in this period of stage 4, it makes it even more serious as I'm talking about in this post...
Haven't experienced fear and nervousness for quite a while.
I see the people like.. I don't feel like desiring to intrude and not very curious, unless it's a woman I have had a connection with but I also don't care what they think of me. It's quite sad actually when I look at it out of the box because it's not dynamic as human nature but rather rigid and deviant/deprecating
Maybe I need to push myself more to the limits? Maybe my standards of my old self have raised and I have to be more creative and think and take action in to the direction I want to go?
My mindset is more like.. abundant and things will just happen to me but I haven't seen any proof, though it doesn't make me stop the habits I have to create the reality I visualize.. I'm just questioning some things...
It's actually having a little difficulty to remember how my old self was..
1. Do whatever you want.. risk whatever your gut tells you because.. you know you have good intentions.
2. Pressure forms the man.
3. Clarity gives space for better decisions.
