01-01-2017, 11:26 PM
12 days now following the instructions perfectly
3 loops of version A every night
subs definitely powerful. Not sure how proactive I need to be with it
I went out with this woman I use to date for a bit, she told me she had started seeing someone
and it wasn't serious yet, but might be, and still wanted to reconnect with me. She got tickets to some DJ event in NYC and we hung there and then went out to dinner. There was really palpable chemistry the whole time, and I felt way looser and more able to be totally myself yet still 'seductive'.
We had a lot of fun, all way more then when I used to date her for sure. I went in with a commitment, to myself, that unless she really initiated getting physical or was ridiculously inviting for it I would not push things. I definitely could have pushed things but it felt off center and too leaning forward. I'm much more interested in woman who unequivocally want to be with me these days, and what I was picking up from her didn't really work for me to try to get together again sexually or otherwise. When we hugged at the end though, energetically it felt like we were having sex and we stayed there for like two minutes.
This is in terms of going out to bars, being on the subway and out and about in my life.
What I've noticed is that woman seem to be more entranced, intrigued, and even a little intimidated or more self conscious, . It's like I can keep an interaction going, and move it forward, and lead things, which I could always do but since starting this sub, is making this even smoother and easier when they click, and harder to continue when they dont, its almost like by body is auto piloting me out of the situation, even when objectively it could have worked to stay around. Maybe this is anxiety or self sabotage, but I certainly don't feel nervous, I feel like I'm not getting enough reciprocation or ease with the woman I'm interacting with.
I'm not experiencing a lot of the woman I'm attracted to putting in a lot of effort, or really engaged with me, or obviously more interested in me then in any one else I'm with. Interactions go well, there is usually chemistry and attraction, but there doesn't seem to be that unique a connection sexual or otherwise. I'm having trouble dropping in so to speak, between a mixture of what I'm experiencing in myself and perceiving in the woman I'm talking to. Things have to escalate very fast sexually or I'm out of there. Well see what the real DMSI effect is, obviously this could be simply what I'm noticing or circumstantial and I'm barely two weeks in on correct use-age.
What I imagined would be a sub where my reality would shift such that the woman I was most attracted to would effortlessly fall into my life and we'd have this amazing connection and for me there would be this feeling of zero competition. I've had moments in my life which felt close to this and would definitely be cool to make more consistent.
I live in NYC and spend time with/ have a lot of friends who are very successful in work and with either sleeping around or creating great relationships, and whether I'm out with them or by myself I find even when my mind is not on it at all, that there is always some element of dealing with other men, if not directly necessarily, through them also being interested in the woman I'm interested in and/or the woman I'm interested in also interested in them.
Jealousy, 'losing out' feeling like not that best option, not actually being her best option etc.. has been and and off a vexing insecurity with my dating life that I want to and am resolving, both internally and emotionally, and reflected in results, meaning that I have actual power and choice with this. I guess if I were being honest the moment I become attached to a result or something happening, I feel at a loss if it weren't to happen is the moment things stop working for me in this scenarios. Either its coming across in my communication and/or at the very least my perception of a situation
anyway Happy New Year all and may 2017 be amazing to you!
3 loops of version A every night
subs definitely powerful. Not sure how proactive I need to be with it
I went out with this woman I use to date for a bit, she told me she had started seeing someone
and it wasn't serious yet, but might be, and still wanted to reconnect with me. She got tickets to some DJ event in NYC and we hung there and then went out to dinner. There was really palpable chemistry the whole time, and I felt way looser and more able to be totally myself yet still 'seductive'.
We had a lot of fun, all way more then when I used to date her for sure. I went in with a commitment, to myself, that unless she really initiated getting physical or was ridiculously inviting for it I would not push things. I definitely could have pushed things but it felt off center and too leaning forward. I'm much more interested in woman who unequivocally want to be with me these days, and what I was picking up from her didn't really work for me to try to get together again sexually or otherwise. When we hugged at the end though, energetically it felt like we were having sex and we stayed there for like two minutes.
This is in terms of going out to bars, being on the subway and out and about in my life.
What I've noticed is that woman seem to be more entranced, intrigued, and even a little intimidated or more self conscious, . It's like I can keep an interaction going, and move it forward, and lead things, which I could always do but since starting this sub, is making this even smoother and easier when they click, and harder to continue when they dont, its almost like by body is auto piloting me out of the situation, even when objectively it could have worked to stay around. Maybe this is anxiety or self sabotage, but I certainly don't feel nervous, I feel like I'm not getting enough reciprocation or ease with the woman I'm interacting with.
I'm not experiencing a lot of the woman I'm attracted to putting in a lot of effort, or really engaged with me, or obviously more interested in me then in any one else I'm with. Interactions go well, there is usually chemistry and attraction, but there doesn't seem to be that unique a connection sexual or otherwise. I'm having trouble dropping in so to speak, between a mixture of what I'm experiencing in myself and perceiving in the woman I'm talking to. Things have to escalate very fast sexually or I'm out of there. Well see what the real DMSI effect is, obviously this could be simply what I'm noticing or circumstantial and I'm barely two weeks in on correct use-age.
What I imagined would be a sub where my reality would shift such that the woman I was most attracted to would effortlessly fall into my life and we'd have this amazing connection and for me there would be this feeling of zero competition. I've had moments in my life which felt close to this and would definitely be cool to make more consistent.
I live in NYC and spend time with/ have a lot of friends who are very successful in work and with either sleeping around or creating great relationships, and whether I'm out with them or by myself I find even when my mind is not on it at all, that there is always some element of dealing with other men, if not directly necessarily, through them also being interested in the woman I'm interested in and/or the woman I'm interested in also interested in them.
Jealousy, 'losing out' feeling like not that best option, not actually being her best option etc.. has been and and off a vexing insecurity with my dating life that I want to and am resolving, both internally and emotionally, and reflected in results, meaning that I have actual power and choice with this. I guess if I were being honest the moment I become attached to a result or something happening, I feel at a loss if it weren't to happen is the moment things stop working for me in this scenarios. Either its coming across in my communication and/or at the very least my perception of a situation
anyway Happy New Year all and may 2017 be amazing to you!
1. There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
