Shannon's Journal

[Shannon]

Stage 5 of AM2011 was hard for me. Not sure why... I suspect because I have been in a sort of catch-22 between what I have been dealing with and what the program at that stage was trying to force me to do. But Stage 6 is much better, and is much more motivating for getting things done.

Based on what I have seen, AM2011 has made a truly monumental, and genuinely astounding change in me, and my life.

Alpha female has the longest script I ever created, and is the most slow going work I have ever had to do on a subliminal. I'm not entirely sure this will actually fit into six stages... or "just" 80 minutes for at least one of the stages. I'm trying to balance this program as best I can, but some of it is very hard to decide which direction to go, and a lot of the delay has been me trying to figure that out.

It was really hard on me to, it made me as anxious as ever going back to a period after my parent died when I was an anxious mess. I don't know what is in it, or the causes of Stage 5 affect on me, but it almost made me quit using it. Stage 6 so far has been a great relief, or pleasure for me along with stages 2 and 4, must be the odd numbered stages, lol.

I don't go by odd and even numbering. The threading and weaving is more complex than that. But I don't remember off hand what I had in the script for stage 5 that made that stage so difficult. It was good to have to go through, though, it made me grow into a better person.