10-27-2011, 03:21 PM
(This post was last modified: 10-27-2011, 03:25 PM by LionMonkey.)
Stage 4 - Day 5,
It's weird. I don't know if it is resistance.. I've felt slightly un-easy after a couple of days in stage 4.
I am also better at doing things that I want BUT just before I do the things or while I am doing the things, I get this inner conflict.. it's like doubt and as written above, un-easiness/nervousness. (I had very little of that in the ending of stage 3)
Even though there are those conflicts, I will usually still do it. Hmm besides that, I have less of those self-talk analysis crap, after something I did. Also it's easier to let go of things...
The thing is for me right now is; I don't know if things has really changed yet. People talk and look at me more frequently I think and women will sometimes just stare at me, like crazy.. I find it flattering.. but my life is still pretty much the same.. like same social circle people I hang out with and just going to school....
Not that it's boring but I would like to see something that is clearly changed.
Maybe it's just me.. people have told me throughout my life, that I should be getting [insert positive things] because I am this great guy and I have a lot of potential etc...
So I might just go with the flow.. it just feels like there's something missing sometimes...
It might be adventure.. or just do some stupid shit and take whatever the consequences are in my daily life......
gonna put my head to sleep... tomorrow starts boring (only upside is the hot teacher), then action and passion, and then fun!!!!!!
It's weird. I don't know if it is resistance.. I've felt slightly un-easy after a couple of days in stage 4.
I am also better at doing things that I want BUT just before I do the things or while I am doing the things, I get this inner conflict.. it's like doubt and as written above, un-easiness/nervousness. (I had very little of that in the ending of stage 3)
Even though there are those conflicts, I will usually still do it. Hmm besides that, I have less of those self-talk analysis crap, after something I did. Also it's easier to let go of things...
The thing is for me right now is; I don't know if things has really changed yet. People talk and look at me more frequently I think and women will sometimes just stare at me, like crazy.. I find it flattering.. but my life is still pretty much the same.. like same social circle people I hang out with and just going to school....
Not that it's boring but I would like to see something that is clearly changed.
Maybe it's just me.. people have told me throughout my life, that I should be getting [insert positive things] because I am this great guy and I have a lot of potential etc...
So I might just go with the flow.. it just feels like there's something missing sometimes...
It might be adventure.. or just do some stupid shit and take whatever the consequences are in my daily life......
gonna put my head to sleep... tomorrow starts boring (only upside is the hot teacher), then action and passion, and then fun!!!!!!
1. Do whatever you want.. risk whatever your gut tells you because.. you know you have good intentions.
2. Pressure forms the man.
3. Clarity gives space for better decisions.
