10-27-2011, 11:29 AM
So things were good today. You know one of those days where everything is just fine? Like it's the same stuff, but it doesn't get you down. I don't know how these subliminals really work, but sometimes I feel like everything just clicks one day and things get better. It feels good to be content for no real reason. It just makes me realize how much suffering I put myself through in the past.
Anyway new insight today. I had a comment today on facebook from a girl to tell me to smile in my pictures. So I switched up my avatar here and on facebook to a picture I took of myself smiling. It just made me think that the reason most girls don't even approach me is because I'm just too intimidating. I tend to reject them before they even talk to me.
That's mostly due to the fear I have. When you fear something it's like you toughen up and you don't come across as approachable. I guess I still have such a cold demeanor because I'm still insecure and I'm trying to protect myself. In other words, not alpha behavior at all. There's a huge difference between dominant behavior and fear based behavior. I'm still operating out of fear.
This just makes me think of high school. Friends would tell me I always looked pissed off a lot of the time. You can't really hide things from people, the behavior leaks through without you realizing it. Until I get this internal stuff sorted out I feel that others will always be aware of it.
Anyway new insight today. I had a comment today on facebook from a girl to tell me to smile in my pictures. So I switched up my avatar here and on facebook to a picture I took of myself smiling. It just made me think that the reason most girls don't even approach me is because I'm just too intimidating. I tend to reject them before they even talk to me.
That's mostly due to the fear I have. When you fear something it's like you toughen up and you don't come across as approachable. I guess I still have such a cold demeanor because I'm still insecure and I'm trying to protect myself. In other words, not alpha behavior at all. There's a huge difference between dominant behavior and fear based behavior. I'm still operating out of fear.
This just makes me think of high school. Friends would tell me I always looked pissed off a lot of the time. You can't really hide things from people, the behavior leaks through without you realizing it. Until I get this internal stuff sorted out I feel that others will always be aware of it.
