DMSI 3.0.1 A newbie journal

[apollolux]

Thanks for the comments Shannon and Travis.

Day 10

I am really getting my ass kicked. I just hope it's the sub working and not communicating with this girl I am set to see on the 10 th of Jan. Got up this morning at about 4;35am so angry I couldn't sleep. Worked out,didn't help. Went to the store..nothing. Got back and listed to dmsi for 3 loops.

In that time I went from Angry as hell when I started. 2 hours in I felt everything was ok. She and I could fine someway to make it work or if she went with some other guy cool didn't bother me. No sicking,painful stomach shit like I would normally get when I think about her with someone else. But by the end of the run it ALL fell apart. I was CRAZY DEPRESSED,the I don't want to live kind. I hope this is DMSI working some DEEP shit out because I don't know how much more of this I can take. I am also short with EVERYONE even my dog. That's messed up for me I love my dog.

This is pretty normal, par the course of DMSI. It will pass. You just need to hang in there long enough to allow it to.

Like everything DMSI related, it takes a few weeks to adjust. Who you are on Day 10 and who you will be by Day 21 are going to be two different people.

Just keep at it and be patient with yourself.

I could have sworn I've seen these exact two posts before...