10-19-2011, 01:38 PM
Stage 3 - Day 30, 2 days left!! 
I can't wait to start stage 4 and see what kind of crazy shit is gonna happen!!!!!!!!
It's funny.. after I wrote about the scenario with guys being intimidated by me, things changed.
Towards the end of Stage 3 I felt more likely to talk. Not talk like.. much boring small-talk but just socializing a bit more and people became more comfortable with me.
I realized that I needed to show some vulnerability because I was coming off too strong, without really being aware of it.
(Maybe I had some resistance, which could have affected me, to be kind of a douche sometimes)...
Besides the improvement in the awareness of being more human, I am getting better at prioritizing my time in myself much more. When there's a person I'm talking to, I'll intuit that my time is valuable and I'll just do whatever I want and if the person have something to say, they have to say it now or else I am gone (or do not care, because I am in the middle of something). It is unless I am hanging out with the person, there are other things to consider in the context of social dynamics and the kind of relationship we have.
Though I'm much more careless, I do find it backfiring from time to time, when there's a girl I find interesting but somehow I just find it strange if she doesn't leave what she's doing and join me and I'll just leave her when we could have been interacting more and a more excellent outcome would come out of it (not that it matters much).
- LM
I can't wait to start stage 4 and see what kind of crazy shit is gonna happen!!!!!!!! It's funny.. after I wrote about the scenario with guys being intimidated by me, things changed.
Towards the end of Stage 3 I felt more likely to talk. Not talk like.. much boring small-talk but just socializing a bit more and people became more comfortable with me.
I realized that I needed to show some vulnerability because I was coming off too strong, without really being aware of it.
(Maybe I had some resistance, which could have affected me, to be kind of a douche sometimes)...
Besides the improvement in the awareness of being more human, I am getting better at prioritizing my time in myself much more. When there's a person I'm talking to, I'll intuit that my time is valuable and I'll just do whatever I want and if the person have something to say, they have to say it now or else I am gone (or do not care, because I am in the middle of something). It is unless I am hanging out with the person, there are other things to consider in the context of social dynamics and the kind of relationship we have.
Though I'm much more careless, I do find it backfiring from time to time, when there's a girl I find interesting but somehow I just find it strange if she doesn't leave what she's doing and join me and I'll just leave her when we could have been interacting more and a more excellent outcome would come out of it (not that it matters much).
- LM
1. Do whatever you want.. risk whatever your gut tells you because.. you know you have good intentions.
2. Pressure forms the man.
3. Clarity gives space for better decisions.
