Shannon's Journal

[Spiral]

Mat, sort of what Shannon said, and what you said about having heavy resistance. I was in a dark deep abyss for parts of alpha male and women magnet when I first ran them. I couldn't finish women magnet because I ultimately decided alpha was the best way to go. Alpha was incredibly hard for me. I thought I was killing myself at points. My subconscious was making me sick through my thoughts in efforts of making me stop the program. It was really rough man. I'm just about over it but the darkness was on and off all throughout alpha and it was really on for most of the beginning stages of alpha. The thoughts were so constant it's still hard to this day to fully get over them. However.. Being in the moment and letting go has helped me alot and I had a few revelations towards the end of alpha regarding being in the moment and letting go and they've helped me immensely. As soon as I started Sex Magnet I've had a new motivation and boldness about me and I'm much happier for it. Not a whole lot bothers me anymore. I say push through that shit.