11-10-2016, 06:27 PM
Nothing that noticeable today. In one of my classes, a girl that doesn't talk to me often briefly talked to me. That's the only "new" thing.
Oh, and that girl at the chinese place told another worker to give me the discount.
I kinda felt like I should have more going on in my social and sex life today. It kinda hit me at the end of the day. I've been so busy with getting work done that other parts of my life suffered. I don't want to ever be in this position again. I'm doing my best to ensure this for next semester.
I was able to keep myself in a good state for most of the day though.
I started listening to the ultrasonic track. I felt a sense of calmness within 7 minutes of listening to it. It's kinda like the little things that frustrated me were still there in the background, but a sense of calmness was more prevalent.
Thoughts
I won't lie. Sometimes I get a bit discouraged passing by so many hot girls or even being in a crowd of girls and not having any/very little attention and at the same time feeling too stifled to initiate (again, that's mainly from programs with healing, wasn't the case while off subs). But then I think of how near the end of E2, girls initiated, and I thought that if that program could help me get those results when that's not even the goal, then surely DMSI can do better. Plus, I gotta keep in mind that it takes time.
I wish I already had plans for the extended weekend. I do have a lot of work to do, but it feels weird for me to not go out and hang with someone at least once this weekend.
And whenever I do start using the next version of DMSI, I look forward to an effective conscious sniper.
Oh, and that girl at the chinese place told another worker to give me the discount.
I kinda felt like I should have more going on in my social and sex life today. It kinda hit me at the end of the day. I've been so busy with getting work done that other parts of my life suffered. I don't want to ever be in this position again. I'm doing my best to ensure this for next semester.
I was able to keep myself in a good state for most of the day though.
I started listening to the ultrasonic track. I felt a sense of calmness within 7 minutes of listening to it. It's kinda like the little things that frustrated me were still there in the background, but a sense of calmness was more prevalent.
Thoughts
I won't lie. Sometimes I get a bit discouraged passing by so many hot girls or even being in a crowd of girls and not having any/very little attention and at the same time feeling too stifled to initiate (again, that's mainly from programs with healing, wasn't the case while off subs). But then I think of how near the end of E2, girls initiated, and I thought that if that program could help me get those results when that's not even the goal, then surely DMSI can do better. Plus, I gotta keep in mind that it takes time.
I wish I already had plans for the extended weekend. I do have a lot of work to do, but it feels weird for me to not go out and hang with someone at least once this weekend.
And whenever I do start using the next version of DMSI, I look forward to an effective conscious sniper.
